Somebody That I Used To Know

Faliha Ishma

It all began when I was 14th years old. At that moment, I was just a teenager who only wanted to make my parents proud. When I was only about 2 years old, my parents got divorced. I did not understand anything at that moment because I was still a kid. Then, my mom raised me all alone. She became a single parent. She told me that it was really a tough job to raise me all by herself. Luckily, my grandmother helped her a lot.

Okay, when I was in 8th grade, I had a crush on a guy. He was my classmate. He was a transferred student. When I first met him, I did not feel anything towards him. I did not talk to him at first, we just shared some smiles. But one day, I just felt like this guy got something on his eyes that captivated me. I really liked to see his eyes. His glances, the way he closed his eyes when he smiled. I just felt something different. So, I tried to get closer to him, by being in the same group as him in science project. I already told my 2 best friends about my feeling. They really supported me.

Then, he began to text me. We talked a lot, even in class. And after school's ended, I got a text from him. When I got his text messages, I felt so happy. I smiled when I read his texts. I smiled when I saw that his name was showed on screen. He just made my day. He was just not a crush for me, but he also a really good friend. I told him all my problems, and he gave me a lot of advices. It made me love him, more and more, until I couldn't stop thinking about him.

One day, my ex asked me to be in a relationship with him, again. "You should say yes. I believe that he still loves you. Just believe in him" said one of my best friends. I said no, because my heart already belong to someone else. But she kept telling me that I should be with my ex, because my crush did not tell me that he loved me or not. She said "this is for the best, just be with him". So, I decided that I'd gave him another shot. I started to go out with my ex again, but sadly it did not work between us. So, our relationship was over, again.

After I broke up again with my ex, my crush told me that he loved me. But he did not want to be in a relationship because he wanted to focus on his study and his hobby. I told him that I also liked him, but like he said, we were not in a relationship. Even though we were not dating, I still felt happy because being liked by someone that you liked, for me was the best feeling ever. So, I was not worried. Until one day, he did not text me. One day, two days, three days, one week... He did not contact me at all. In class, we did not even talk to each other like we used to be. I was confused. So, I asked my best friend to help me. She asked my crush "why don't you contact her? You said that you love her, what's wrong with you? She misses you". And then, he said "Sorry, I don't love her anymore. It is over"

Guys, can you believe it? He said that without any doubts. I mean, I really liked him, I loved him. He did not even care about my feeling anymore. He only thought about himself. I cried a lot. I felt numb. That was the first time that I loved a guy that much. Now I regret it. Right now, he already has a girlfriend. We both already moved on. But right now, he is just somebody that I used to know.