Unspeakable

Princess Manabat

We met in grade 2. I didn't really cared back then about him. Our parents became family friends in an instant. Our houses weren't that far. And we were invited to their parties. It was until grade 4, I started to notice him more. My friend, Carrie, had a crush on him. She introduced me to him around the end of gr.3. That was when I really started to take interest. After Christmas break, in the grade 4 year, my friend Carrie just kept talking about how awesome he is and such things. During those talks, I developed feelings for him for the first time. We got to know each other since our families were close friends. We were like BFF's. We played outside, everyday during summer with other friends. But that relationship didn't last very long. Grade5, he knew that I had a crush on him. So we started to talk less and less, since I would start being quiet and awkward.

The grade 6 year was the worst for me. We started to hang and talk less than it already was. I waved at the halls, he would just ignore. Near summer that year,it became more cruel for me. My used to be best friend, Nicole, dated him. They kissed couple of times, but thank goodness I never saw them do it. One day, after school, me and him was walking to our homes from the bus stop with some of our friends who takes the bus too. Everyone knew that I had a major crush on him ever since. Paulina talked to him about the problem why I have been ignoring him ever since he dated my used to be BFF. So, Paulina suggested to say sorry to me and I had a chance to slap him across the face. But I didn't. I can't hurt the person I love, I said to them. I cried in tears in front of them, I told them to just go. He was the last one to leave.

I tried my hardest to forget him. Gr.7 didn't go that well, but it wasn't that worse. And now, to my last year in elementary, we are stuck in the same class. Out of all the years I could have been stuck with, it just have to be this year. The awkwardness eased up. And now were waving hi and saying hey. But we could never go back to those olden days were we shared our secrets. There was no chance for me to ever date him because I confessed to him 4 times and all he said is that he's not interested. Of course it broke my heart, but during those elementary years, my only crush was him. So I gave up in the end of grade 8. We never talked or made eye contact in high school. His girlfriend right now is my bestest friend. Im happy for them. It was just never meant to be.