he was a nightmare..

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..this story really shows how stupid i am;D
so here it goes..

i am a playgirl sh!t.. i dump boys and i dumped plenty of them.. i dunnu, maybe because i never believed in true love and forever thing.. and besides it can only lead you to pain and all those stuffs..
but, hey.. u can't really, u know talk things that are not yet done..so i fell in love.. well, i promised myself that if ever i fall in love, i promised to make things right and romantic:) and promised to keep it forever( even if i dunt believe in that word).
he was a friend actually, we were like best friends..and i never ever thought that i would fall for him..the moment he told me that he loves me, i refused myself to believe in his sweet talks..lol. but after many months of wooing me, i fin'lly gave up and accepted his proposal to be his girlfriend:)
maybe, there are some of us in this world hum even though we have our gf or bf here still afraid of loving them totally right? well, i am one of those kind. yea, i love him but u know i am afraid to put it in another level. i had lots of bf before but nico(his name) is kinda different.. u know, i would tell him everything.. about my family, school, problems, my friends, my life, the books i'm reading......duh and duh and duh.. simply EVERYTHING.. maybe thats the reason i fell in love. i cudn't control mahself so i just went to the flow..:)
darn, he was the only bf whom i introduced to my mom, grandparents, cousin, aunts, uncle, friends, new found friends..everyone of them..tsktsk
i even changed because of him.. from a girl to a woman.. from immature to mature..i was so proud of myself and for having him in my life..
the relationship was still goin' well on the few months..
we were soo happy every time were in each others arms. we would laugh even the corniest jokes.. everythin' was soo amazing.
but 1 day, everything changed.
I forgot my schooling. I DIDN'T attend my class to the fact that i am already on my 3rd yr. level of my nursing course.. but i blew everything..and didn't care about my future as long as i am happy having him that's all enough.
another day came, a girl texted me and told me she is my babe's long time girlfriend.. wow, that was kinda sh/t day u know..but i was a fighter and acted as if i didn't care coz i trusted my bf so much for heaven's sake.. i thought it wasn't true. but one day, he suddenly gave up.. he told me they already broke up and she is not the reason y he's breaking up but i didn't really understand his reasons.. after the day we broke up i never had the chance to meet him. but after 2-3 days he asked me to talk to me .. well, it's hard to move on when there is no real "CLOSURE" so yea, i talked to him.. he was crying really hard that day, askin for acceptance of what he did..tellin' me he loves me more than her, telling me how much he really loves me, that some day we will be together again.. asking for my forgiveness. and everything came up.
well, the truth is they don't really broke up.. until the girl find out about our relationship, i didn't have any idea about nico and his long time girlfriend coz he introduced me to his family..and i visit him in their house almost everyday..
nico is forgiven about what he has done. but i didn't gave a chance in our relationship.. cos i dun't want to make things complicated.
but, even though his girlfriend is mad at me, i know my place and i know it was my mistake. soo i kept my feet on the ground until we became friends..

well, here i am.. it's been a year. i dun't really regret of loving him. even though it hurts a lot i now believe of the word "LOVE"..and i know some day, i'll meet a man who will truly love me. the person who really belongs to me. see you soul mate :)