The Lone Wolf

john Daise

This is the story of a young man. Whether you learn something from this or not is up to you. Most of the time until high school I like to stay alone why? I do not know but that's just me. Anyway I met new people in high school and eventually became friends with them. Of those friends I gathered there were 2 girls. Sam and Sabrina. Unfortunately for me I became attracted to Sabrina. she was a very weird girl and some things about her I did not understand. So eventually we talked but it turned out even I was too weird for her.

See in my school men that was considered weird became an outcast while girls was different. Not only that there was a few things I wasn't used too like friends and other things. So I just wasn't ready for a lot of things. For example people thought I was scare of confrontation and afraid to fight back but the thing is I was afraid of myself. I know that I can do "very nasty things" Anyway I would always try to talk to her but my shyness would get in the way and screw things up. After repeated fails but I didn't give up yet. The school talent show came up and I buy her something from a video game she likes. After she's done singing. I run up to her to tell what a great job she did. But before I can even say a word Sabrina screams on me and tell me off. After Sabrina told me off I felt like shit. So I went to the backstage and put what I got for her in my backpack and went home.

On my way home it was a full moon and I wished upon it hoping I would find someone that can love me. Next few days I saw her in the hallway I was going to ask her why she was so upset at me during the talent show. But then I saw one of my friends talking to her and a few days later they started going out. I have been trying for months and it only took my friend a few days. So eventually I left her alone. Christmas comes up and I do a little secret santa for Sam and Sabrina. I didn't want to do secret santa for Sabrina but for some reason I felt that she had problems. I knew she did because she have the same "EYES" as I do. So I did it. When she got her secret santa she was happy but didn't thank me one bit. Sam on the other hand like it and thank me for it. Eventually me and Sam start talking and I begin to fall in love with her. It turned out we have a lot in common But because I was an outcast half the time she wouldn't talk to me. The gift I got for Sabrina at the talent show I gave it to Sam. After that we grew closer together towards the end of high school.

High school ends and I visit Sam once a week at her house. It turns out Sam really did like me but she was using me and I was in denial because I loved her. I chose to go away to college to grow up and become stronger. Still talking to sam (not knowing she was using me) I kept trying to get her to change her mind. I always talked to Sam on this website. Little did I know that Sabrina was liking and reading every comment I posted. Its turns out me and Sabrina have a lot more in common then I ever had with any other girl I ever met. Me and Sabrina both love a full moon during a nice night sky. Sabrina apologize to me about the talent show. Apparently she was mad at her dad. But I ignored her a lot and continued to talk to Sam. Once I found out Sam was using me we stop talking. At my college I met a lot of women but for some reason I just wasn't attracted to them nor did I have anything in common with. So I just stayed to myself.

A year and a half later Sabrina gets a hold of me and we start talking I realize that we would be I really good couple. I asked Sabrina out to the movies but it turned out we never had the chance to. because I went away to college and she has a tough work schedule we never met up. me and Sabrina brought each other gifts for Christmas but we could never meet because of what I mention earlier. after about 9 months she start acting a little weird when ever I talked to her. Eventually she tells me that she don't like me and she apologize for leading me on. So I told her to get rid of me and delete my number because if we just stay friends I will keep getting hurt in the process. She refused to do so and told me goodnight? since we have so much in common she don't want to let me go. Neither do I, but I have to move on because I don't want to be hurt anymore. I know Sam said something to her and ruin whatever chance I had with Sabrina. So there I graduated from college and starting salary is 50,000. Graduated with honors so life is good huh? well not quite all this money and fame and I have no one too share or enjoyed it with.

So I stick to my true nature and stay to myself all alone. every time I see a couple walk by I wished.......I wished I was one of those people to have a hand to hold onto. Every full moon I see, I wonder what Sabrina is thinking (I'm pretty sure she's thinking the same) Both of us love to watch the full moon. Whenever I run at night I howl and continue my pathway of sadness...... of a masochist lone wolf........