She's Broken .

Natasha

She's an innocent little girl named Natasha who grew up with no one and nothing. Her mother didn't have time for her or her sisters. Her mother had time for drugs and sex. She was 4 and she was confused. She asked God everyday why her mommy didn't love her. Natasha asks her mommy why she doesn't love her and her mother says "Because you're worthless! You're ugly and disgusting and you're not my kid!" Natasha just cries, she doesn't understand why her mother says the things that she says. She's cold, hungry and scared. Her mother never feeds her or her sisters. Instead her mother sits there and eats in front of them, making her and her sisters smell the food but if they try to eat it, they know they'll get beat,so they go to bed starving. Natasha stinks and is extremely dirty. Her mom didn't pay any of the bills so she can't take a bath.

One day mommy brings home several guys. Natasha is scared because these guys are big. She remembers her mother calling her so she goes to her mom and she says "Yes mom?" . Her mother then instructs Natasha on what to do. She knows that what she is doing is wrong but she doesn't wanna upset mommy, so she does as she's told. She remembers the guy being big and smelly, and really mean. She didn't know what he was doing to her but she knew it hurt. She cried and cried but he slapped her and told her to shut up. So she lay in silence. She's in pain and she doesn't know what to do. She doesn't know what she did that was so bad that her mother would make some guy hurt her like that. This happened almost every night up until she was 7.

She was bruised and broken. Her innocence was ripped away from her. She was lost and confused. Her and her sisters were later adopted by two loving people, but she was never the same after that. She was withdrawn and depressed. She was terrified of the world and men. She wouldn't let anyone get close to her in fear that someone would try and hurt her again. It's been 9 years since all of that happened and she's 16 now but the memories are still there, worse than ever. She lays in bed every night, softly crying silent tears. She wonders when the pain will ever go away? She thinks to herself "What is wrong with me? Why do I feel so alone? Why did it happen to me?" She shakes in fear from the terrible memories that are stuck in her head. When she finally falls asleep she tosses and turns from the terrifying nightmares she has. She wakes up screaming inside, trying to shove out all the horrible images from her mind. She knows that she's safe now but she's still terrified. She doesn't know who she is. She hurts herself. She thinks that death is her only way out, she needs help but no one knows how to help her. She's tired and hopeless. She's broken..