Don't Leave me... Please

Just...Katie

Dear you...
Yes you... I love you... Don't leave me... Don't overdose on those pills.... don't let her get to you... You are my best friend... If you leave, I leave too, you know that. She is just... I don't know, not a good person. A good person wouldn't leave someone as hurt as you to try to do this over and over again.

I'm sorry I keep refusing to get help. It scares me so much I don't even know why... It just does. Don't kill yourself. I love you too much. So many people care about you... you can't tell. What about your little sister? You're such a good big brother. If my brother was half as sweet as you are to your younger sister than I probably wouldn't hurt as much as I do. I'm so sorry you are hurt. If I could take it all away in less than a heart beat I would... no matter what. I would take it all away. At school, sitting around anywhere, all I do is wonder "is he okay?" "is he...?"

I get really attached to people too easily and I'm sorry. I just... I've never met someone who has felt this way, felt just like me... There is no easy way... I know... But please. Don't leave me... not tonight, not tomorrow, not next week, never. You want me to live to be over 80 right? Well if I have to suffer that long, then you will be right next to me. I can't live without you. You mean a lot to me... I just, I'm so so so sorry that all of this pain is being put on your shoulders. I can't help it. I just want it to go away. I feel like it's my fault. I could help you.. I want to... So bad. I am just so stupid and helpless. Instead of helping you I just sit in shock and cry because I don't know how to help you.

How am I supposed to help you?
I want to help you..
I Love You.
Yes, you.

I always will love you. Forever. You are the best thing that has happened to me and I don't mean to be selfish by asking you to stay... I just, can't live without you. I can't live knowing that you're just buried in the cold ground. So close, but so far. Too close, but too far. You live ten minutes away from me, but you seem so far away.... Just too far for my lazy ass. You say you will follow me into the dark. Well, I will follow you anywhere. The dark, the light. From Bangkok to Calgary... Don't leave me. I love you... So much.
Love,
your lost friend who never wants you to leave her...