An Agonising Love Story

Monishka p

Hello everyone
I am an Indian girl from a small state & want to share what happened to me. It was in year 2008,that he joined our class. I was in grade 7 then. His name was Vivian. That time he was a complete "nobody" to me. He seemed much of a troublemaker so I used to stay away from him. In grade 8, our teacher kept us together in the same bench. He started talking to me but I was really un-interested but a friend of mine told me that he has a step mom who does not treat him right and that info really melted my heart.

Vivian was from Assam, a different state and stayed in hostel in Sikkim, i.e my state. Soon I began talking to him, he did too. Then we slowly started joking, our song sharing business & somewhere between our long talks, friendship, I fell in love. . . During that time we didn't carry cellphones so we only used to meet only in school. His friends began teasing me with him & my friends thought he was madly in love with me. Instead I was in love with him. But I never told anyone anything, not even to Vivian. .

In grade 9, I vividly remember,august 6th 2010, Vivian got suspended from school(n0t fr0m hostel) because he was blamed of bullying a junior(which he didn't)..only I knew how I felt. Seeing an empty desk next to mine was enough to break my heart. A never ending painful lump had formed in my throat which couldn't be swallowed no matter how hard I tried. . . A deep anguish-a never felt agony. It broke me up completely and listening to our songs only made it worse. But what kept me going was his letters he sent me from hostel to stay strong. No,we were not in relation still. .everything was fine, until 26th august. . .Vivian got his expellsion letter and had to leave Assam...he never even got a chance to tel me goodbye. He just left. I cried so badly, heartbroken. . . .on reaching ma home, I got a text 4rm him (got a cell in grade 9). Telling that he was sorry and I tried harder n0t to cry. .

We started texting everyday now. But he never approached me. I waited and waited. . But still he didn't. Till 1 day I asked him. He told me that he loved me too but I am not what he searched 4. He told he didn't wanted to lose an angel like me and wanted to treasure me always like best friend. . .

Today Vivian has an asamese gf. and I got sum1 who loves me very much. But deep in my heart, no matter what, I still long for our old days to return . . . .