The Undying Love

Julia Sullivan

I'm currently 18 and this story started way back when I was 13. I had a 3 year major crush on this cute guy. After waiting and having kept the developing feeling, I was soooo happy to finally know from a friend that he actually fell for me. LIKE FINALLY. Well, you know that happiness. Well, after getting more about each other for several months when we started to get closer, he finally decided to ask me to be his girlfriend, which was what made me felt so good about it. It was worth the wait. We dated for like 7 months, we went out a lot, explore places, go for hiking, out for dinner at good dining places, and writing lengthy love letters to each other even though we usually meet during school. I would always remember how he loved to kiss my forehead, waved and blow a kiss while I'm in class and fold a paper heart and fold it with his love letters; I still keep them nicely in a box.

All that happened in the Graduation Year, so the year after, he'd be changing school and meet new people. Normally I would be very insecure but knowing that he actually loves me, I would think more on the positive side. And yeah, we graduated from the school and things began to change when he started school in January. He started to not talk much with me and I thought he was busy so I just gave him his space. One of the days, he actually went to meet me for awhile and he showed a Polaroid of him and another girl which he said was his Best friend. So I really thought its his best friend. So I was like, "Oh, she's so pretty!", but inside me, I was dying to see him and her in the pic, like that's not the only picture I see. There were loads of it.

Someday in February, both of us exchanged our ipod touch. There was a facebook message notification on his Ipod, so I thought it was mine. But it came out to be his. His Best friend sent him a message, yeah, the moment I saw her message I was broken, it was such a sweet talking convo of them calling each other Dear and all those lovey dovey stuff. Yes, at that point of time, my tears just bursted out. It was so heart wrenching. Few days after that, he told me his love for me has faded, and I told him what I saw in his Ipod. But ever since he knew that girl, he stopped texting and calling me as much as does before, he compares me to another prettier girl and all, making my self confidence die.

We broke up the day before Valentines Day and it really hurts a lot. Its like, everyone is spreading the love everywhere and all I feel is just sorrow. Actually, I haven't even gotten over him yet, its just too hard. Coming across his pictures always never failed to make me tear up. Till now, I'm trying to fight this sorrow deep in me. I hope that I can keep myself strong for now.