Broken

Nourhan Yusf

A year ago there was that guy he started talking to me like a lot but i wasn't that interested actually i used to like hate him so much .. and he said that he wanted me and loved me but through the time i believed him and we talked a lot on the phone and we used to like meet a lot and shit .. but then things started to change, he started to change and stopped calling me like he used to !
then we like had a fight and everything was over then i called him and i fixed things up and everything was okay again until i did the most stupid thing a silly girl can ever do. we were like together but not bf gf but we were hooking up so i went and i dated another guy and the one i actually loved kept calling me but i was scared to answer him then he text-ed me and he was like just wanted to say CONGRATS ! and we stopped talking for like a month or something but i broke up with the guy after a week ..
So, I coudn't bare my life without him so i text-ed him and i was like am sorry I know what i did was so wrong and I regret it and i miss talking to you and stuff like that then we started talking again but the thing is he was weird i dont know why but he was different and that was killing me and I knew that there was something going on but i couldn't say anything cause i really loved him and i didn't wanna loose him and everything was going great i even hugged him and that was like my first hug EVER ! then after 2 week or something we had a fight and everything was OVER for EVER like there's even no hope of us getting back at all ..
after like 6 months trying to get over him another guy came he was like so caring and we're together for 11 months but sometimes i miss the my ex and i really dunno what to do cause i saw him and it killed me inside when i saw him with his new gf :S
that ruined my day i duuno why and the thing is that am really deeply and madly in love with my bf now !
i really needed to let everything off my chest !
cause it's hurting me .. =(