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amy louise

I'm one of those girls who barely fall for a guy easily I've only ever loved two lads in my life so far. I've been used, played&lead on a million times it hurts so bad..anyway, it was back in summer 2012 I was sleeping over at my best friends house and we went out to meet some friends and there was someone I'd never seen before, he had sparkly blue eyes! we were having a big water fight and he got water in my hair so I pushed him in a bush and he went home, after that I didn't think anything of it, a few weeks later I checked my messages and got one it was from him he was being really nice and said sorry for what had happened the other week, we started talking more and more but I thought of him as a little brother as he was 2 years younger than me!

one night me and my best friend went to his friends house as he was there about 11 at night, I wore his coat and he gave me the biggest hug ever we went home and I was getting cute texts of him calling me beautiful.. I went to sleep and woke up with a text telling me he liked me but I told him I only liked him as a friend, he got upset but we carried on talking like we did and still was close!

A few days later we went town with friends and he was really flirty with me and he was the type of lad who was horrible to be flirty but I loved the way he was his personality is amazing so we spent day together until 3'o clock and I made him come on bus with me that was the best, he kept annoying me but not in a bad way so I started joking and ran half way down the bus and sat down he came and sat next to me his legs over mine, one arm round my waist the other one stroking my hand whilst kissing my head by this time I had fell for him..

We spoke all day everyday through text I told him I liked him, well gave him hints I did, I went on his bus from school a few times as we cuddle all the way home and walk home together with big hugs at the end, I was falling a little bit more each day! One day we started drifting a tiny bit and he told me he's know good at relationships and that so he don't want to lead me on anymore, I cried and cried all night, I started talking to his cousin to try make him jealous then I told him I moved on and fell for his cousin and I then got together with his cousin, he started crying saying 'you were always mine' but he was the one who pushed me away? lead me on? broke my heart? day later I found out by a friend of both of areas that he only said all that stuff to me because his cousin liked me, so he did want me,didn't want to let me go?

I ended it with his cousin and got close again to him, he made me feel so special calling me his 'perfect baby' 'beautiful' and telling me 'i love you' ide fallen for him so much,so many feelings for him it was like before how close we got cuddling,flirting everything I thought he liked me again? but i read some messages how he called other girls 'beautiful' and 'i love you' I get jealous:(
Finally, Friday 7th December he told me he only liked me as a friend and thats it he lead me on again and left me broken in tears.. Its so hard to move on from someone you fell for this much after all these months of this,it feels like a waste of time that you've come so far to this.. I love you.

^i wrote that the 8th of october 2012 2 months after i started to like him..

10 month later and im still in love with him like truly, madly, insanely in love with him, its been 376 days since the day i fell for him and not a day goes by without him crossing my mind:( since december so much has happened guess what? he became my bestfriend:D wow so much happened we would skype eachother endless of times, walk to and from lessons with eachother, go in bus cuddling together then walking home, then meeting eachother making one another laugh untill we got stitch.. they were perfect ngl.
months went on.. march time we was non stop talking about 'may' then in april the 28th that day came, the kisses.. then more the 'friends with benefits' they were the best days of my life i was so happy but i honestly thought they meant something to him.. how can you kiss and hold someone like that and not feel anything?