Locked up

Skye

My mind is a death trap waiting to be sprung. Horrible thoughts run through my head, voices whisper telling me that I'm worthless being. The only thoughts left in my head aren't even my own. Evil swirls in shadows and I'm cornered in a windowless Grey bleak room, with the shadows trying to eat my happiness. Everyone i get close to is stuck in my poison and something disastrous happens and i ruin their lives. My mind is locked up and no one has the key and everyone keeps telling me I have the key that I just need to look harder to find i, but they just don't get it do they? My mind is death nothing more. everything inside of it is evil wanting to released and I keep trying to tame the beast and everyone wants me to let the beast go. I rather have myself torn up from the inside than let that retread beast out to roam and consume other peoples happiness. It's not that I love other people so much that I won't let this beast out it's because the beast has its own race and killing one can help prevent the next from appearing. If i can stand 4 years of this horrible thing inside me hopefully i can last a little longer to actually have a life. But who i am kidding i will never find love or anything magnificent so whys it worth trying. I will probably die because of the beast. It's leaking out of my mouth and i can't help it for much long. If you are depressed for a long time and something sad happens deal with it the second it happens you may not be strong after, but be strong for that moment. Your future will depend on that single moment.