A second chance
Alex Love
05 Jan, 2014 10:40 AM
A little over a year ago, I hit what most would call rock bottom. I found myself sitting alone on my bed, tears flowing down my face, with everything in my life completely unknown. I sit up every night wondering if I deserve a second chance after what I did. I did a lot of things in my past that I am not proud of, I try to be good show everyone that I changed, nobody believes me or wants to believe me. I try so hard every day but it gets really hard. I hope someday my old friends my mom my sister will finally believe that I have changed I do try and I will keep trying until they see that too. I always thought that people change and they deserve a second chance. But in my case every second chance turns to more an turns to shit. I can never meet a real person in this world all I have left is my mom and my little sis. Those people who have tons of friends a n a big loving family are lucky not all of us get that and I don’t think we ever will, my problem is I let people in to easily without making them show me they care first. So in the end I am the one to blame for this. Not the guy who broke my heart, I am the one who let him in, I guess it’s fair in away. I make a choice I deal with what comes after on my own. Of course if I make mistakes I never get my second chance. I hope that when everyone makes a mistake in the fucher then they will finally see that it is not only me who makes mistakes everyone does, it's called the human race we do all the time and why we do it I have no idea at all. We just do I guess our body and our mines tell us to I guess! I try so hard but trying just isn't good enough anymore. Sometimes you have to forget what you feel and remember what you deserve if people cant see threw the past then they are not good enough for you and you should not waste your time on them! here is a poem that may help some of you out!
I know that I am not rich or pretty but at least I don't lie or cheat or steal. I try so hard to fit in.. but if fitting in means I have change who I was in the first place ten forget I am tired of everyone playing with my head an all the peer pressure I am so glad I got out before I did something I really could never take back...
But, I did get up and face each day. No matter how hard it was, I confronted the issues in my life with hope. This word — hope — became the theme of my life. I began feeling life again, unafraid of facing challenges, because I had hope
I really hoped you all liked it thank you so much for taking the time to listen to my story.
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Comments
Post a Comment09 Jan, 2014 07:14 AM
Wow alex I didn't know you had all these feelings inside. I just want you too know that I'm always here for you and you know that cause i proved that i care about you. If you need anything you know how to contact me. Love you always. And remember you are a tuff bitch. :)