What should i DO?

ChildishOne

Did you guyz ever loved someone? someone you cannot afford to lose?
anyway, I just wanna share my story.. I guess in this way I can ease the pain..
Please give me any advice you would have in your mind after reading this...

This is my STORY..
I was 13 and so as she is, but now we're both 17.
when the first time I met her, I never thought of falling in love, maybe because I never tried loving someone,.. And as time goes by my feelings begin to grow and grow and grow more. And majority of my classmates knows what I feel for her, That's why they helped me when I courted her.. Fortunately she answered YES and we became girlfriends and boyfriends.. Unfortunately it only lasted for 6 months.. I can still remember those moments.
but in just a wink of an eye.. you would then realize that it was just like a dream..

Unfortunately we broke up because of her parents.
And when we broke up.. She made a promise.. she said that
"WE'LL BE TOGETHER AGAIN, I PROMISE, just wait"
and I've been stupid for believing those words..
I never did think of moving on, because of what she said. After that break up, we never talked.. because of people making issues about us. thinking that those issues might reach their parents.

because of that promise she made.. I waited for like 2 years.. and during those days.. I never loved anyone else.. Those times I focused on several things like.. studies, computer, sports. those were the things that keeps me busy..
and I guess, while I was waiting... I think she doesn't know it.


One year later since the day we broke up, I always hear some issues about her, issues like "She likes him", "She has a new boyfriend" and etc..
and those were the issues I never believed.. as times go by I still often hear those issues..

Until one day...
MY best friend told me that it was real.. She already loved someone else.. and I felt like Shocked and I paused for a few seconds to think of something to say.. then I said.

"I already KNOW it.. Oh come on! I'm always updated" I let my best friend feel that I'm ok.
I said those words so that nobody would know that it does hurts me..

I mean, you know how it feels like to wait for nothing right? and 2 years is really a long time to wait. T_T

After the graduation day, She sent me a message through cellphone, she said "SORRY"

and I said, "Nah, its ok.. I understand"

it really took a lot of tears just to ease the pain every single night,

I never think of moving on, because of the promise I made when I let her go..

and after a year of their relationship, she once again sent me a message, she said she wanted to be my friend, A close friend.
and I did agree to her. and so we became more closer to each other, and because of my stupidity I started loving her, because I really missed her,, and I started making plans for both of us, plans that would only happen in my dreams. Because after 3 months of texting with her, she said that, she will stay away from me, for her not to be scolded by her EX boyfriend and for her not to suffer anymore problems.
She said she loved me,
but she said that she felt mercy for her ex.
she sad I was the one who made her realize that she doesn't love her ex. but she can't even give a chance for us... she said that she's afraid of what might her ex do to her, and what might her ex do to his life..

I said everything I could just to have her back,.. but she thinks that its better if I'm away..
away from her...

it really tears me apart remembering those times,
Times that I can say that LOVE IS ON THE AIR..
but now.. nothing is left, but memories.
- THE END -

Thx for reading... You might find the story difficult to understand.. but I hope in anyway you do understand how it feels.. T__T
and my question is.. "THE BEST THING TO DO IS?"
should I move on?
or should I wait once again?
please help me.. I'm so confused on what to do...