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Angela

I was Grade 4. I was just a new student in my school. Everything was so awkward and new. That's when I met him, and experienced love for the first time.
It was only after our examination, and I was tired but ready for another quarter of studies. One day, a friend told me that a boy in class had a crush on me. I didn't believe her at all, for that boy was someone I don't even know. But after I actually met him, he caught my attention. And before I knew it, I had a crush on him. I tried to deny it, but his hooks on me were just too deep to ignore. He was kind, smart, gentle, sensitive, mysterious, and totally DISTRACTING.I lost my focus on other things, and thought about him everyday.
My feelings for him lasted for 3 and a half years, and I was surprised that I was able to keep it to myself for that long. All the while, I thought he was giving me signs he likes me too. All the times we talked, he related with me, even though we were so different. But now we've reached high school, I noticed something different about him. He became closer with my best friend. We rarely talked. I don't even know if he knows my name.
Well, for me, that was it. I needed to know if he likes me too. I asked him, and told me he had a crush... on my best friend.
Those words just stabbed my heart the second he told me.
It hurt too much. I wanted to cry, but the tears won't come out. It put my whole world apart. I tried moving on. I went back to focusing on my studies. I also tried avoiding him at all costs. I still talked to my friend, but the pain was undeniable. After a while, I was fine and happy again.
But I don't know why I still feel sad every time I see him with my friend. It still broke me. What will I do?