The Suicide Note

Do you think this is the right way to end this? To be frank with you, you have chosen the wrong part. If you are a religious person or probably a christain you should know that God does not support that you take your own life with your hands. Suicide is not biblical. All these are happening to because you keep on holding on to your past, you keep on dwelling in darkness and you refuse to see the promises your creator "GOD" has for you. Allow JESUS to take control and you will see everything will be fine. GOD is able to do just what he says he would do. He will fulfil every promise to you. Please, dnt give up on GOD because he wont give up on you. Commiting suicide will on make satan happy. Put satan to shame by trusting GOD and his WORDS. I would advice you to tak a peep in d bible at anytime you feel down. GOD is your strenght.

There was a time that I felt a lot like this... actually, pretty much exactly the same. I didn't have anything bad going in my life, I still don't, and yet I felt the desire to no longer be apart of this world. If you take a step back and look at it as a whole, yeah, the world is pretty messed up. People hurt other people for no reason, money is defines most people's lives, and we are all selfish in our own way. I encourage anyone who is reading this comment to check out a speech given by David Foster Wallace to a graduating class from Kenyon University entitled "This is Water". Basically, it is about breaking away from thinking in a way called the "default setting" which is that no matter where you are or what is going on, YOU are at the center of the universe. Everything revolves around you because if other people knew what you were going through, and how annoying it is to have to wait in line at the grocery store while other people, who aren't as important as you, get their groceries first. The thing is, we have to learn that everyone, and I do mean EVERYONE, thinks in this same way all the time. But by being able to break away from this mentality, we are able to DECIDE how to see other people. For all you know that jerk who cut you off in traffic could be trying to get his pregnant wife to the hospital, or the lady in the grocery store yelling at her overly-energetic son that he cannot have a candy bar has actually stayed up the past 3 nights holding the hand of her husband who is dying of bone cancer. None of these things are very likely, but they aren't impossible. So basically what I am trying to say is that the most important truth to know isn't something like what life is after death, because the real truth is what life is BEFORE death. Making the most of the time you have. Because if you live your life with the mentality that things need to be the way YOU need them to be, you will never be truly happy, or satisfied. And so, when I learned this, I realized that even though I am not a very selfish person, I was still thinking with this mindset, and that was the reason why is was so unhappy. The way I got over my depression was by seeing the world through multiple lenses, and accepting the fact that sometimes, things aren't going to go my way. This can be anything from not being able to go out with my friends because I have too much work, to having the feeling that the entire world is collapsing on top of me with me screaming for help but getting no response from anyone. The thing is though, that even in these times when I feel like there is no escape, all I have to do is remember that I'm not alone in this fight. Because there is someone, somewhere who has it much worse than me and who is still able to fight through it somehow. I realized that if they are able to do it, I can too, and even if no one else recognizes how hard it is to continue living in the situations I'm in, I have to come back to the realization that this is just part of life, and although it may seem like it's not worth it in the end, it is still the most precious thing I have, and I cannot give that up because some parts of my life don't go the right way.

I'm consered you not feeling any empathy what so ever can I ask why did you write this ? Where's you guide to lean on? There's also a moment of hope and courage think of every thing you'd be giving up? Does that not matter . I understand your doubts and view of life just why? Its not significant ?

Even though nobody would pro read this but somdtimes i feel the same way but going to church helps me

Omg she died?

Rest in Peace. We know you didn't find it on earth, but maybe you will wherever you are now.

Flightless, u won't see her again, the bible says that u can't enter heaven if u kill yourself but I pray for her, maybe GOD give her second chance?

She indeed has died @i was once happy; I lost my best friend to suicide... </3
I believe it would have meant a lot to her @Uma and @shajar. If only she could reply...

I keep coming back to this suicide note; it's filled with so much emotion that I cannot stop re-reading it...

... Oh my god.. this is horrible.. :'(

I'm so sorry to hear she suffered and couldn't find the answers. People deserve better :-( Maybe she's free from pain at least... I hope.

While all heads were bow in prayer, no one notice a beautiful soul lights go out for the last time...