it was fake

alizah

Ok i was almost 13 and we had just moved to this apartment and we was outside when the neighbors come out.I thought the one that was my age was so cute but my friend didnt agree with me.I knew from that moment something good could start here.Little did I know moving there was the worst mistake we ever made.It all started when me and him started to get to know each other. I started to fall in love with him as time passed. Well time passed and I met his insanely cute brother. Thing is my friend also liked him. They started talking and she told him that I liked him and I told him that she liked him.What I thought had happened was he liked me and my friend told him to ask me out but now as I look back and as they slowly confess what really happened was she told him to ask me out or dared him to so he did. I thought he really loved me cause i really loved him. He asked to use my phone so we could talk and i would use my brothers phone.I said yes.Now I wish I would have said no because the only reason he wanted to use it was to talk to my best friend and ask her out behind my back. To this day I still don't know exactly how that all happened. I still have the urge to cut myself.I still wake up at least 3 times a weak screaming I HATE YOU!. I still talk to his brother the one i fell in love with first and had always been in love with. To this day i am still in love with him but I dont think he loves me the same way I don't even think he knows. Hes the only reason I'm still alive today.I LOVE YOU BABY!