Promise

Radiance

Her side of the story.

I looked at his leaving back. The one I used to lay on when I'm asleep. I looked at his hair. The same i use to pull on when we were making love. The same body. Except that he no longer belonged to me anymore. How I wished he would turn to look back at me. The "me" that he once said he would never leave, coz it would hurt himself. But now he's got someone else to love. I'm nothing to him. Anymore.
"You promised" I muttered to my self while I cried. "You promised"

"SIMON!" I shouted across the heavy rain that's now pouring down.
"You promised!" He stopped in the middle of the road
"You said you would never leave me!! In the world alone. Not unless I told you to. But I want you now. I need you." I was nothing without him. Yet he chose to leave me.



His side of the story.

I turned without a backwards glance. Because otherwise I would never be able to leave. I have to leave the country. But I have to make it easier for her. Because I love her.
I walked through the rain in front of her. She followed me? Dammit, she'll catch a cold. I longed to turn around and hold her tight in my arms like I always do.
But I kept walking. I flashed pictures through my head of us. Us. I promised. I promised I would never leave her. That I would always love her. I'm breaking that promise. I had to.
"SIMON!"
I froze where I was. And let the tears run free.

"You promised!" Yes I did. I've never seen her cry. And I've been the reason this first time. Why am I doing this? I loved her. I want to hold her in my arms and apologise for the asshole I've been. But I can't.
"You said you would never leave me!! In the world alone. Not unless I told you to. But I want you now. I need you." I need you too.

"I love you" I said in a voice too small for her to hear. For the last time. I don't believe I could love anyone else.
"I'm sorry"

And carried on walking before it got too hard for me to suppress the urge to kiss her lips.

I love you