First love

Gage Picard

well to start, I've seen some of the stories posted, and this may not be a great one but i want to share it. it was the start of school in September 2012, i remember it like it was yesterday. my first class of the semester and year in grade nine was my gym class. my school is small so their is a grade 7/8 split also, which is where i attended for grade 8. when i walked into the gym i saw some familiar faces, but their were also about twenty new kids also. i took a quick glance like i always do with new people and did not pay very much attention. But i decided to look up into the bleachers on the second last row i saw two girls, one with a pink sweater and long brown hair, and then a shorter, blonde haired girl. she was so beautiful and ill never forget the feeling when i first saw her, i never believed in love at first sight or at such a young age, but with her i never felt this way, i knew that she was the one for me. throughout the first few weeks i noticed her staring and smiling at me, so eventually i decided to confront her and we just hit it off, we added each other on facebook and started talking for days everyday. i never had internet at my house, i would go to my cousins everyday just so i could speak with her and smile. i asked her out on September 15th, i still have no forgotten the day. it was a great first month, we talked everyday, spent our school days together and i was just always happy. but a couple months in she left me for a guy named anthony, when i found out i was devastated. i felt like i was just never good enough, i shut my self off for a couple weeks, it was hard to speak to her again. i eventually got over this and we became friends.

After Christmas i got a text from her, she said her and her bf had just recently broken up. i asked why and she said its because i realized i have loved you since the day i saw you, and im just not happy with him anymore and i want you. i was ecstatic by this and i asked her out again in my music class. She was my first kiss, its something ill never forget either. we were doing so well with each other, i spent all my time with her, after school i would just talk with you her all day until she went to bed. i would say goodnight and good morning every day, but then on our fourth month she asked me to take her virginity. i was surprised because we had not talked about this at all, and i thought something was weird because she was not that type of person but i said i would like to lose mine to you too. it happened a year later though so we waited a while, but we began to fight. i talk to a lot of females, that's most of my friends and she would get jealous and angry at me a lot and would try to make me jealous at times too. we got into such a bad fight one day she had told me that i should kill myself and she wished she never dated me again. i cried all night because of this, but i was so in love with her i wanted to fix things and eventually we did. but my friends told me i was changing, i was becoming an angry person, i snapped at everything, i would stop making jokes like i usually did, i broke my phone and almost hurt my friend with it... it was like this for awhile, she just took total control over me and she knew i would never leave her. i left her one day though, i showed her i wanted a relationship where it was equal and i knew she loved me and not used me, we were apart for a couple weeks and then we fixed things yet again.

We were very happy after this but we were scared for the summer, her parents did not want to meet me so she was not allowed to come see me or me go see her. But in august during the summer i made a public Facebook post saying how much i loved her, how happy i was and that i thought we would be together for ever. Her mom teared up reading it so i messaged her and i was finally able to go see her, it was one of the best days ever for me. one day when we were together, she told me why she wanted me to take her virginity,when she was with her ex he molested her a lot and was planning on doing more than touching, i broke down when i heard this and i was going to kill him the next day i saw him, but she just looked at me with her beautiful blue eyes and told me it's ok, i have you and that's all i need and kissed me. we started seeing each other every weekend, we were so happy until one day her dad quit his job, they were debating on moving to Montreal, it was 10 hours away from me and we were both hoping she would not have to move, but after grade ten they moved. i spent everyday with her, she said we would still be together forever, so i waited until she got internet again. we talked again and i got suspended for getting into a fight with two kids for 14 days right before the march break, so i spent 200$ to go visit her for a month. everything was great but we started fighting a lot, she said we may not make it but i convinced her that we would. but she lost internet again when i left, then a couple months later right when i went to bed i got a message, she was leaving me but she never told me why, i cried all night for two weeks. then when i went on Facebook i saw she was with someone else and i just had a breakdown, my friends would ask me what happened at school and i would just start balling my eyes out. they knew how much i loved her and how hurt i was. she kept messaging me saying it just didn't work, but she still loved me and i could find someone else and it just tore me up. we started talking months later and we got into a nasty fight, after that nothing has ever been the same. she was my first love, i gave everything to her and i do not regret it, i still love her to this day and i dont think that will ever change.