That man......

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why? Why? Why?
That man.... his name is john, nice looking guy... bestfriend since first year in colage.... he was so perfect to me.... his eyes, the way he talk, his cutest smile.....
He always nice to me.. when Im in trouble, he will be there to help me.... texting me at night and talk about assignment. Remember my birthday..... he make me fall in love with him soo much.... All this time... I thought our feeling are same....
And that time 16 September 2014.... On my birthday.. he give me a huge pink teddy bear and a chocolate....i stared at the doll almost 2 hours... and i have decided to tell him abou my feeling that I have been keep for 4 years.....

Calling him that night
Me: hey you... thanks for the gift

you:welcome... its your bday... someone like you deserve to have the best gift

Me: there is something that i want to tell you..

john:haha! What is it girl... that sound serious

Me: i love you

john:..............

Me: hello? John?

john:please jess? stop this joke

Me: john! Im not joking... i've crush with you since 4 years ago! don't you ever notice it?

john:then you have pick the wrong person in heart jess..

*Hang up*

The most saddest moment in my life.... You broke my heart by telling me that you never love me...and you only considered me as your ordinary friend
All this time ~ I'm wasting my 4 years to keep my feeling on you.... I'm so sad.....it's the firstime in my life im feeling so pain without any blood in my body... the pain came from my heart... crying all the time....
After 3 days i attend my class with a bright smile.. but there is no sign of john in the class that time... i was thought he don't want to see me anymore....
Its already 2 weeks since that incident and john still not appear... and that time.. danny, john roomate.. come to me... and give me a letter... guess what~ from john.... danny told me to open the letter after finish class....

I open it

"Dear jess,
Im so sorry.... it's all my fault.... honestly, i really like you than you ever known... the firstime i saw you... my heart were pounding so hard... i really want to know you... the time when we became friend you make me saw the most beautiful girl in my world... thats you.... i want to protect you and always be there for you to make you happy.... but the fate dont want me to be with you... Ifound out that i
have a liver cancer stage three.... the doctor told me to stay in the hospital... but i dont want...what i want is to be with you even as a friend... your smile is my life.... now you know why i always look pale..after the night you call me... I'm feeling upset because i dont want a special women like you to date with a sick man like me.... i know that you will get a man that much better than me... that is why i make you hate me....
This is not a good bye letter.... what i want to tell you is... you are so beautiful and im sorry if i have become so bad with you..

John"

After read that letter... i cry so hard... i find danny and ask all about john sick.... I go to the hospital and search for johh.... i open the room that ... and i see a man laying on a bed fighting for his dead... it is john....

Me: hey john... you are very expert in keeping a secret hah~

John: heheh... i know right

Me:not funny *crying*

*john wipe my tears*

John: i love you....

Me: i love you too john

*i kiss john cheek*

With a smile in his face... slowly john close his eyes....