Rewind

anonymous

Sometimes, time doesn't give you "times", its just once. Now, close your eyes. Imagine your closest bestfriends, remember all of your bitter sweet moments, remember the first time you broken hearted, the first time you kissed, when you said 'i love you' to someone, when you said 'goodbye', when you said 'sorry' and 'thank you'. Now, let me tell ya something, all those moments not all of it could have happened again. Learn to appreciate everything you have or had.

I had a bestfriend at elementary school, she's like my own sister. We shared everything like kiss and tell, she know the worst part of me, so was i. But by time everything start changing. Go to middle school, find new friends, and moving always be the hardest part. And i moved to another province, left her. Sometimes, i missed her. But, by then i get used to live my life without her and i forgot about her, about us, about our friendship. When i was preparing for my flight she said to keep in touch and i agree.

But, yeah, i was acting like a jerk, i didn't care. I know everything about her through my grandma, she always told me if her asked me. It was just so hard for me to say hi and how are you. i was so busy with my new life. Until when i went to my grandma's house, i found it out. She passed away.

Brain cancer. She wasn't strong enough to fight the cancer. You guys have no idea how i felt. It was like knock me down, when i heard it from her mom all i can do was just crying. I felt so mad with myself. How could i called myself as her bestfriend if i didn't even know that she was struggling fight the cancer?! Her lips turned blue almost black, her hair started fall off, her body.... oh God...

She was often said "Darl, everything that might come up, face it, don't ever dare to bow your head, wipe your tears, don't let them laugh at your weakness. Look at me, you have to promise me that you won't ever give up to fight. I always stay right behind your back and i will catch you before you have ever touch the ground. I love you." and i wasn't really listening her until now.

For you, My dear angel..
Thanks for had been the best thing that have ever happening to me.
I'm sorry for everything.
I'm sorry for let you through all that pain alone.
I'm sorry for too busy with my own life.
I'm sorry for... ignore you.
I always pray for you.