Expectation Hurts

Asif

This is my saddest part to share. Love those days in my life which I used to be with her. And I’m trying to forget those days which still making me dying every moment, from which I can’t get myself back, it’s just like a one way ticket to a heart break town.

Ruhi, it was her, we came into relation in our high school. Before we’re together I was one tough to look at girls, as a thought that “Man! These girls are useless”, this is how I use to be. But this thought wasn’t long last for so much days. Soon, I got myself in her eyes and arm. She had a crush on me, but she doesn’t have a way to speak with this tough guy. Somehow, by a chance she ping me as thinking it’s a friend of her. But I got it, that she unaware about whom she texting with, I explained that she was on a wrong person. And I show myself whom she doesn’t believe me. At last she came to know that it’s me. She was excited and started telling her friends about our conversation. Those girls were jealous of her, because they wants to make friends with me. But my girl got into that. Here comes our story started, a beautiful beginning. I saw changes in me, not like early days, thought that “Hey! There is a girl whom she can make you fall for her”. Our days flow like Early meet before classes starts, late meet before going back home, cute texting, sharing love with chocolates, lone walk in empty roads, they were One wonderful bunch of days in my life.

Days passed in the same way, our final exams got over. We’re in a situation where our parents came to know about us, they didn’t accept us. She left me because she was forced to be. After some days, she came back. Which is unexpected. I never thought that she will be mine again. I have fallen for her just how I did earlier. Sooner we become together like as same as we were in those days. However it wasn’t delightful for both of us, ‘cause as much I wanted in her wasn’t with her with me. Yes, I was being crazy about her and always being mad at her. Whenever I ask her “don’t u have any feel on me, just how I have?”, every time she replies “I do, but I don’t express”. This will be a kind of hurt.

Knowing each other’s state that we will never going to be together. I took a decision to leave her as soon as possible… but I am still in the state of fear to leave her forever. ‘Cause I Love her much as never loved any one just how I love her. She always be special for me, I wanted to express it to her and show her how special she is for me. But it will be one sided, she don’t be expressive, even though she loves me much.

I've been like this till now. just like starving for her care and love......