broken

Jaeny

Here is my story...

December 25th 2009 this was the exact date when I first fell in love...
I fell in love with a guy named Marcus he was sweet and very cute. We always stay up and text and call each other every night. We loved each other SO much we never fought and we never had any problems. He was always there for me he would always make me smile, and laugh. He would text me every day nonstop! He would always say I love you in every text he sent me...
He once told me that he is full Mexican BUT he wasn?t he is half white (and yes I don?t like it when people lie about their culture or race.) when I asked him if he would ever cheat on me and he said ?no? and I believed him. He also made a promise, the promise was that he will never leave me for another girl, and he did I don?t know why, but he is stupid, he is stupid enough to get 2 or 3 girls pregnant.
When 14 days past he has been cheating on me some of his friends tried telling me but I didn?t listen. They tried to protect me from getting hurt, and I didn?t listen I was just SO stupid. I didn?t listen, because one of his friends tried breaking me and Marcus up but I couldn?t remember who.
After that day I asked Marcus if it was true, if it was true that he was cheating on me the whole time, and he said?.no. I smiled and kissed him and walked away and when I turned around to say bye I saw him kissing another girl?it was one of my best friends. I turned around and tried not to cry I held my tears for a very long time. When I finally reached the bathroom, I cried so hard that I didn?t go back to class for 1 hour. My heart was in pain and broken into a million pieces.
I couldn?t believe I felt for it?this happened to me repeatedly (pretty much about 4 times) I thought that Marcus was the one, the one I can trust and be with forever? BUT I was wrong!
How am I supposed to find the right guy I don?t know what to do...for some reason I still love Marcus and I will always love him?