Lost In Thoughts

Dre

So, My story starts here, just started yr 11, started talking to this gir, after a few years finally had the courage to talk to her, anyways as the days went on we went from friends to best friends we just call and text nothing to big.

As the days went on I started falling in love with her more and more, it as unrealistic, but the thing that keeps destroying me is... she likes the person who used to be my BEST MATE, we stopped talking in year 8 no reason why, just did, anyways she cares about him so much and I see why, the way she looks at him, the way she talks about him, but he broke her heart which gets to me a lot.

I really want to say something but I'm too scared to, it'll be weird for us then.

It kills my heart to know how much she loves him, but I'm cool with it because I see her beautiful cute smile everytime.

Even when she looks at him I'm looking right at her, everything about her is just stunning, especially when we Snapchat each other I can just see her and her eyes, the best things ever.

I want to say something but I can't itll just go wrong.

But my old mate, how could he have done that to her, she's one of the best people I know, personality is on point, I'm in a position where I think I should leave it, because I look at myself everyday in the mirror, and think to myself:
"She never looks at you, look at you you're ugly, she wouldn't dare date you"

I cry myself to sleep every night knowing my love for her is going no where, it won't move an inch.

If I had one day to date her, just one, that one day from me... she'll be treated like my F****** queen, she's just the best thing I've got in my life, everyday we talk it feels I'm getting more and more feelings for her.

Position I'm in... crazy, I know, but I can't keep seeing her hurt from that F****** prick, it annoys me so much, but I can't do anything to him... or I'll be the one...who hurt her.

I don't want be the one in the wrong, now I'm just thinking suicidal to end it all.