Will you come back to me?

Sonia

I still love him....
I still need him....
No matter how hard I try, I cant' forget and I can't let go.
I have already liked him for a while. I loved him, now I know. I wasn't sure back then, because I never knew love. I never knew how it feels to be 'in love'. But I loved him. I loved someone for the first time in my life and it felt great. I don't even know why I love him so much. I just do. I love everything about it and when I would be with him I would feel safe.
I have always thought he thinks of me just as a friend. It did hurt a lot. Then somehow things changed. I have noticed him looking at me more often, talking to me more. Eventually we dated, but only for a couple of days. Then he told me, that it is better to forget him, because I was supposed to go on a one-month holiday and when I would come back, I would be in a different college. I couldn't believed what I heard. I was too painful. He did let me go.
It has been 2 months now, maybe not enough for my heart to heal, but I don't even feel like it got better. When he let me go, he took a part of me with him. For the girl, who would always smile and cheer everyone on is now hard to feel happy. Oh, I do smile and joke and laugh, but I don't feel happiness inside me. It's gone with him. But no matter what, I will search for my old self until I find it. I will never give up, nor I will never stop waiting for that boy. I believe that everything happens for a reason, no matter how many times you fall down, you are always able to get up again. You have got to only try and believe.