Sad but True..

Rua Nasir

Sad but true
It wasn?t that early, neither that late. It wasn?t that Good and neither that bad. Good as she was with me but bad as she shouldn?t have been with me. We were there but didn?t know that why we were. Just a feeling of nothing covered her and she had her head on my shoulder and her tears fell as if I was the one who could carry them and deal with. I wasn?t able to look at her, even. Her face was always pretty, with the innocent dimple she had. I could just sit and turn my head other way around and she could just, speak and speak. I couldn?t interrupt her as well, as she had the right to speak it all, at last. And despite letting her speak, the reason why I didn?t interfere was that I couldn?t interfere. I had no words to speak. She was speaking and I was listening like the trees gently listen to the birds that sing. There was a little difference though, Birds sing when they are happy and the trees quietly listen to the melody. But to me and to her was different. She sung as she was dying and I heard as If I was suffocating. My heart beats were growing louder and louder but I could do nothing, nothing at all. I wasn?t the one she loved for sure, but I was the one to whom she could easily lay down her head and cry and cry. And to her, I was the one who would eavesdrop and share the grief. She kept uttering, ?Why john? I still am not getting it. Are all girls like that? All girls, when they love someone truly and don?t tell? Are the words locked in each girl or is it only me? It wasn?t him, It wasn?t me, neither his life, nor my life. It was the time, john. It?s the biggest enemy seriously. It would take your love from you? You are my best friend but you didn?t make me stop loving him. I will be waiting for him still. I will. He would come, john. But is there a way to come from heavens? I mean is there really any link between heavens and earths? Can I get all the stars that he promised another girl that he would bring? Tell john, Will I get or I just have to wait when he would be coming with stars from heavens? Or shall I go to heaven with stars in my hand? And tell him there, ?Oh to the person I sacrificed my life, to the person whom I loved my whole life? Take these stars as I didn?t have time to give them to you in earth. Take them and accept them. Love them. I will be beside you as I felt and now here I am. I will laugh with you, I will cry with you?
And by telling this all, she left. My world left. My soul left and my love left? and I didn?t know it was the last time I was seeing her. I was so dumb, I just kept quiet. Everything I had left me forever? and sitting there, still there. Still and still there. The place where we saw each other the last time with her head over my shoulder and I am still there. Loving each moment we had together. She said that the girls don?t express. Then God let her know, the boys don?t even. For years and years, the same words were blocked inside me too. Did I show? NO? Let me express the words now.
?Why? I still am not getting it. Are all Boys like that? All Boys, when they love someone truly and don?t tell? Are the words locked in each Boy or is it only me? It wasn?t her, It wasn?t me, neither her life, nor my life. It was the time; it?s the biggest enemy seriously. It would take your love from you? I will be waiting for her still. I will. She would come. But is there a way to come from heavens? I mean is there really any link between heavens and earths? Can I get all the stars that she promised another boy that she would bring? Tell, Will I get or I just have to wait when she would be coming with stars from heavens? Or shall I go to heaven with stars in my hand? And tell her there, ?Oh to the person I sacrificed my life, to the person whom I loved my whole life? Take these stars as I didn?t have time to give them to you in earth. Take them and accept them. Love them. I will be beside you as I felt and now here I am. I will laugh with you, I will cry with you?
And now tell Mary? In my words am I having anyone to tell? Is anyone listening to me? I am just speaking it at last. Tell me Mary, At least you had a shoulder to lay your head and cry but I don?t have the shoulder too. Sad but true.