mistake

janice

i was 16 years old and just finished high school. i had a boyfriend who was an American Filipino. we were classmates since we were first year and by the time we graduated, he had to go back to America to live with his dad. i was devastated of course. who wouldn't be when the one they love would leave and go to some distant place?
well, that is when i learned that i could go with him. aside from he's rich, he's handsome, good-looking, but that was not the reason why i love him. anyway, i was okay with studying in America but that would mean i would leave my grandparents here in the Philippines. you see, i was an orphan and my grandma and grandpa raised me up. when i told them that my boyfriend invited me to go with him, they said it was okay..but it wasn't for me.. i was torn between family and love.. a week later after the graduation, the flight for America was already scheduled yet i still haven't decided. ..
amidst the confusion, i chose to stay with my grandma and grandpa and let the chance to be with my bf slip.. 2 years later, my grandma died, soon followed by my granddad..and i had no one with me. sure, i had my friends but they weren't always with me. .it was then i realized my mistake. i could have gone with my boyfriend and still visit my grandparents.
i realize why my granddad and grandma told me to go was because they have no more time remaining. .my granddad had cancer while my grandma had heart disease. i was so immature that i didn't know this.. i wanted to get back with my boyfriend, in fact i already did, but it was too late..he already had a girl friend. someone much prettier than me...it was the biggest mistake i had done..and now, i'm already 22, and still single..still waiting for that second chance to fall in love..