IS IT LOVE OR IS IT LUST

Dylan

we started to date again.
it wasn't our first time because we had once before.
i was so happy, because i had broken her heart the first time and i told myself that i would never do that to her again. this time we were getting a lot closer and i had really thought that it was going to last forever. we stayed up as late as we could talking on the phone. texting whenever we could always walking with each other everywhere holding hands. it was perfect, better than perfect. always saying i love you before we left each other, or we hung up. it was the perfect love story until one day.our school was getting a new kid that use to be in a gang. she became his friend because she was always nice and accepted everyone for who they were. but she was hanging out with him more than me and i felt like i was loosing her. then after several times telling her to stop hanging with him because he was trouble she started to drift farther. i began to think she liked him and that really scared me. then one day for no reason she broke up with me. i couldn't handle it im a guy and i cried until no more tears came. the next day i started a fight with the new kid, i messed him up pretty bad. i heard from friends that she cried when she heard about the fight. then after school i got a text saying are you ok? it was her and i was so happy she still cared. we had a talk the next week and she told me that she had never liked him that she broke up with me because she wanted a brake from a relationship. she told me she still loved me and we still hangout a lot. but then one day she told me she was hanging out with some new guy that her friend had introduced her to. she told me that she liked him and wanted to date him. i felt heart broken, like it was the end. but then she said she still loved me she just wanted to try new things. the only reason she wasn't going to date him is because she was temporarily moving far away. she told me that she wanted to have a future with me and wanted to marry me, she just wanted to try new things. i couldn't believe what i was hearing, i just couldn't understand how some one could do that to some one they loved. i am so confused and i don't know if i should hold on or let go. I'm in love and i would do anything for this girl but the pain is to much to handle. I've meet someone else but i don't want to give them a chance because I'm waiting....waiting for the day that she says "i want you back". if only that day would come.