In loving memory

Essy

Nothing's harder than loving someone who loves you, but then
something horrible happens that separates you, forever. It doesn't matter how I met him, what matters is that I loved him more than anything, with all my strength and my heart, he was the reason why I smiled, my motivation my sun and moon, the light that shined out of my eyes. My heart was filled with so many beautiful things, his voice his name, his touch the color of his eyes the strength in his arms and the warmth in his embrace. His laughter came to me during the night in whispering winds reminding me that he wasn't that far away.Once we took a walk at the beach me and him holding hands leaving our footprints in the sand a memory that the ocean could swallow up, but share with everyone who sees the eternity in it, he was first, kiss, lover,man,and he will be my last, they all I say im young that i have my whole life ahead of me, but from the moment my heart and his united, the moment we became one soul, one beat we where both in it together.

A knock at the door, no call from him, it was 11, my heart beat in anticipation it was already telling me that something was deadly wrong, the wind didn't feel right, the night seemed twisted, the people around seemed to multiply.
"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry."
What were they saying to me!
My head swelled up, tears rained down my face, and screams, high glass breaking screams, they all came to prevent me from falling.
"A car accident, he didn't suffer, he died quickly, he had no chance."
Ive been screaming forever, if i hear his name I'll dissolve into a puddle right in front of you. I cry out of no where, in public places, when I'm alone, when I'm with friends and family, my heart has no shame. His name is written on my chest, right underneath my heart, because he's the only one that it can keep it beating. Life is plain now, hurt, gray nothing makes me happy, I'll i do now is wait for my turn, I've tried to hurry the process but everyone watches me, so now i wait i wont live forever, this pain will eventually kill me.