Dreaming of you

girls

Is this reality? I can't believe what I saw just now. Why must you end up this way?
You stole my heart and now, you're breaking it. How could you be so mean to me?
I still feel and remember how you hug me and whisper to my ear, "Baby, if anything happen
to our relationship, promise me you won't give up on us." and you kissed my forehead.
From that moment, I suspect there's something bad going to happen either to you, or me. I guess, it's
true tho. Tears running down my cheek, the cheek that you've kissed before leaving it like a scar to me.
As I was cleaning up my room, I saw the picture of us. The picture we first meet at the beach. How I wish I can touch your
black hair, your fine face, hear your heart beating when I hugged you and the most I want to see is..your smile and your laugh.
Crying as hard as I could won't solve the problem. But, what should I do? I can't let you go. I can't throw away our 2 years of relationship.
Do you know how much I miss you? A lot of things running thru my mind. The feeling of confused, anger and depressed.
Maybe, by going to the beach can forget you, erase all of the memories you left it for me. Cold night, lonely in the dark, it feels like a doll that have been used and thrown away.
It seems like I can't stop myself from crying. After whipping all of my tears, I still crying like how baby miss their pacifier.
From far, I can see some couple spending their time together like there's no tomorrow.
Am I useless to you? Do you feel like I don't give enough of my love for you? So many questions in my mind now. You could chase after me, and explain to me, but it seems like you
don't care.



My phone rang~ I glance at it, and saw your name on my screen. Aha~ there you go;" I don't know you'd care after all." -"Can you give me a chance to at least explain to you?"
I kept quiet, gave no reply to him. He starts to explain to me~ after his explanation, I sighed and hang up on him.
I know! I was being so stupid and dumb. But that's how girls feel when a guy call her to explain right? Later~ he called me, and I didn't answer. I received a voice-mail,
"I know I was wrong at doing it. I know! But please answer me will you?" Another voice-mail, " Please, please just answer my call. Do you remember what I told you
earlier? Yes I know I broke my promise, But I know you're kind enough to give me another chance~." While hearing his soft voice, I couldn't stand it but to cry again. He
continued, "Maybe this is what I experience when my ex dump me. Maybe it's my revenge, and I'm sorry! I'm sorry for stealing your heart and break it. I know I was mean to you.
I'm sorry for leaving a scar at you cheek. I can't say sorry anymore because it's already 3 times I said it~" I called him back with a heart breaking tone" why?" He reply, "because it
forms a 3 letter word and that word is 'I love you'." I can't say any word but to say" i love you too." I sense someone walking to me, and it was you, the guy I've been waiting.
You hugged me so tight, tight that you make me feel like I'm you pillow. I close my eyes, dream that we can last forever but when I open my eyes, you...you're not here.
I was dreaming...that you would come to me. And again I cried leaving like a bucket full of tears. One thing I wish I could have right now is I just want to hold you, touch you, feel you, believe you, and I miss you....</3