i love you more then you know

Tracey

~"this is real story, not really sad but true"~

Me and him never really were friends till that moment on.It all started out with a "hey". We began text-ing each other, day and night; when we are getting ready for bed or maybe even in the middle of the night. we were like two peas in a pod best friends. a few days before Christmas, a new girl came to school. We knew everything about each other, what our favorite food was what out favorite color was where we are going at every moment, even who we liked. That night he texted me that he liked the new girl...it killed me inside to know that cause really I knew i had fallen for him. He kept flirting with her, it hurt me so much and i couldn't stand the pain anymore so i told her strait up "he really likes you...if he ask you out just say yes..." and i left. the next morning he asked her out and she said yeah. i was happy cause he was happy or so i tried to be. The next few weeks were just killer pain...they were so happy, holding each others hands kissing laughing. I couldn't take it anymore...i texted him these three words that meant the world to me "i love you" he sent back "oh i love you too....i thought you knew that" I was to scared to tell him what i really meant. the next few days i didn't text him or talk to him at school he didn't know what was wrong so he pulled me over after class and we talk and i told him EVERYTHING i told him i loved him more then life itself and he is what keeps me alive and that id take my own life if it would make him happy.. he grabbed my arm and said that he was sorry. we walked out of the class together and made our way to the lunch room but like every other day i thought he would ditch me for all his cooler friends but this time he didn't he told me i was his best friend and that he will never leave me by myself. we walked to the lunch room and i sat down where i always sat and he sat down right in front of me..i asked him why he was here and he said to sit with you. but his girlfriend was there with us :. lunch was almost over and it was time for us to go to class...he hugged me; the first hug he ever gave me. Everyday was like that for the next 3 horrific months. till that one day i told him that everything's changed and we couldn't be friends anymore. we argued over the phone for hours in tears i hung up and said goodbye the next 2-3 weeks i avoided him not even looking at him till that one afternoon we stayed after school and he said he was sorry. on the last day of school we did everything a couple would do (other then kissing) we held hands, laughed, we did everything together we even skipped some classed together. We laid on the floor in band. him holding me in his arms i fell asleep. after 30 minutes of class passing by i woke up and he said whats up and smiled. out of the blue i kiss his tummy ( i signed his stomach with permanent marker ) and then i looked at him and i kissed him on the cheek. now its summer and we rarely see each other and I'm dying every second cause of it :( and as for his girlfriend they broke up and not even talking to each other :). i miss him so much and i feel us drifting apart :(


I LOVE YOU TONY