Troubles In My Life

Kristina Gilpin

I'm 25 years old withing theses last couple years of my life it haves been nothing but hell. When I was little my mother never was around she always left me and my brother to go be with strange men and drugs I know when she came home it was only for a couple of Min cause when she tuck me into bed she would rub the back of my head to put me too sleep so I wouldn't be up set when she left all I ever wanted is a mother which I still never got. When I was 8 years old my father took me over to my sister and her husband house to play with their kids well I got thirsty I went into the house to get some Kool Aid on my way back out my brother in law stop me he said he wanted to talk to me I said okay then the next thing I know he was on his knees between my legs he started rubbing my thighs I was shaking I try to afraid bI'm 25 years old withing theses last couple years of my life it have's been nothing but hell. When I was little my mother never was around she always left me and my brother to go be with strange men and drugs I know when she came home it was only for a couple of mins cause when she tuck me into bed she would rub the back of my head to put me too sleep so I wouldn't be up set when she left all I ever wanted is a mother which I still never got. When I was 8 years old my father took me over to my sister and her husband house to play with their kids well I got thirsty I went into the house to get some koolaid on my way back out my brother in law stop me he said he wanted to talk to me I said okay then the next thing I know he was on his knees between my legs he started rubbing my thighs I was shaking I tried to scream but he just put his hand of my mouth he weighed 200lbs I was only 8 years old why did you take my life for me I was so young I hate you for it I could never forgive you for what you did to me then I had a sleep over with your daughter you just simply did a again I was so damm scared to say anything cause I didn't think they would belive me till this day I still have those horrible nightmares you have left me with thanks. my father did his best to rasie two kids and work a full time job as a trucker my dad is my hero you know it's sad when your own father had to teach you about your porid and how to shave your legs because your mother didn't want to step up and be a mom instead of a whore I was a A B stunted in school but I was the shy girl in hand me downs that no wanted to talk too I got pregnant when I was 19 with my first child a little girl Annabelle she is 5 now then Mckenzie came along she is 4 then a little later my son came along my very own little boy I was so happy like their was nothing to ever get in my way well I was wrong February 14th 2011 my babies where rip from me I left them at a baby sitter over night she was a friend of the family and I was real sick at that time well next day while I am in the hospital I get a phone call saying my kids was taken from me because I abused them which I never ever in a million years will I do that I love my babies sense I've lost them I am so dang depress I just want to jump off the highest cliff and never look back but If I did that I would never maybe get the chance to get my kids back I Miss them so much just to see them and hold them once again will be so much joy and happiness to me Oh yea I even got a black and white kitten hope she the coolest kitten ever. Thank you such much for letting me tell my life story