i love him too much

gracie

i love this boy soo much i cry just at thought of losing him. no one believes that i love with all my heart. they tell me that it isnt love but if this isnt love then wat is? because i have never felt like this. i used to be emo u no cutting myself. but then he came and i stopped. he did that. he changed my life. he takes my breath away. i mean evertime we kiss it has that rollercoaster tummy twister rush. i now this is love.its like the notebook love. we fight and fight and fight but we just fight because we love each other. when he touches me it feels like a thousand sparks are flying in the air. one time i heard he had a sex dream about someone else. i got so angry not at him for having it. u cant really stop a dream.well i wasnt really angry more like scared. if i lost him to a slut like her. i would......i dont no what id do. it hurt so much. i thought i was going to lose the best thing in my life. my inspiration. i couldnt lose him. the rest of the day i didnt talk to anyone. i was so depressed. i was heartbroken. at the end of the day i went up to him. we had to talk. he said it was a lie. that he never had that dream. that his friend was just playing around. i was so relieved i felt like my heart was whole again.he told me that he was going to breakup wit me, but he couldnt do it because he didnt want to lose me either. i said i told him at the beginning wen he ask me out that i was difficult he said i can handle it i was like ok. i was wrong.he can. god i love him so much. i will always love you!