Will we still BFFL after this?....

C.U

-Its a bit long, Sorry.

I don't know what to do, Im confused about so many things. My feelings toward this guy I met,and then there's Z.R, We have been Bff since grade 9,I don't have real actual feelings for Z.R anymore I did when I was 14,that was..3 years ago, I'm 17 now same as him except hes older by a few months. he wants to do "stuff" and I don't do that with friends I'm not like him I can never be that way, I don't and cant just sleep around with friends, specifically with friends that i used to have real feelings for,Its weird. I used to think that maybe me and him would/could have a future together..But i grew up at 16, I don't know why but I think its because reality hit me,really bad. I just suddenly grew up, I still party and drink, But I'm more mature than I have ever been. Anyways with this guy Z.R...I just think that fwb ( friends with benefits ) would not work, It usually doesn't .So I've heard. Someone always gets hurt.Someone ends up falling for the other one.Or someone gets their heart broken.And don't get me wrong he is like a hard core 10 hes hot basically.
He doesn't want me Dating this new guy, He wont tell me why,And I have no idea why. I even told him hes never met him ,and he doesn't care he doesn't want me dating even though hes been bugging me because I have been single for almost 10months.So its like wtf?


I'm not attracted to him in that way as much as I used tio be anyways. So I really don't want to lose my friendship that i have with him, I love him with all my heart just not that kind of love. And I cant mess this up, Just cant. He would never pressure me I know that,He knows that. Hes not like that...

The guy that I've recently met at my friends party, We want to go out But he thinks its best that we get to know each other some more,which I'm cool with i agree with that. And I honestly think that i could have real genuine feelings for him he's a little older than me Not much though.And I'm focusing on Him right now But than Z.R started with all this fwb stuff..Like me and Z.R flirt A Lot- But we dont mean anything by it. And this new guy I really wanna focus on him in that way And not Z.R in that way.
How do I tell Z.R all this? Should i even tell him ? I don't cheat just saying I'm not the cheating type never have been never will.I really wanna give this new a chance and then there's Z.R like what am i suppose to tell him? We're bff I cant just hurt him like that .We've both been really hurt in the past and I don't want him falling for me,Because I know the feelings that I once had for him will never come back. What should I do?

Leave comments if you like,Just i don't know what to do, Any Advice?