Backstabbers!

Caily B.

Oh life is always so sad and tragic, love is always destroyed, families are always being broken and left behind, and children growing up alone, with no supportive and loving parents. This is why I... am alone... and sad, but mostly angry. My life passed by in such a fast blurr, and it was tragic, and painful...

Hello, my name is Caily, Im 18 right now, but what they did to me still hurts me deeply...

I was 10, my best friend was our neighbor's son, James. James was a strong, nie boy, he had blonde hair and was a little taller than me. He was also my age, and went to the same school all through middle/high school. Well another four/five years passed, and I noticed a change in James. He wasn't the loud fun person I always loved...(as friend) He was quieter, dark, and mysterious. He slowly stopped talking to me, or even looking at me. I didn't know why he was doing this, i was so angry! The worst thing was is that he was in most of my classes, and he was my neighbor. Then on the last day of school, my friend, Shanna, told me that she was DATING HIM! I was so mad I told her all my feelings that hurt me, that she knew he broke my heart, and that he hates me, and yet she still dates him. She told me this at the end of 3rd period, I started crying, I knew i still had to go to class so i headed that way, then i remembered that James was in that class. When i sat at my desk he didn't even seem to notice me! that made more tears stream down my face... The end of the day neared and i was about to get on the bus, when Shanna ran to me. She tried to hug me, i pushed her off and said "don't talk to me, ever, you're such a backstabber," she looked at me and said "I'm so sorry, but I'm not breaking up with him for a piece of s*** friend, who wont admit she likes him!" I got on the bus like nothing happened, I always knew she didn't want to be friends. I started to think about what she said, and I realized maybe she was right that I liked him! I sat in my seat, James walked on the bus with serious look on his face. While he walked by me he whispered,"Hey, sorry for Shanna acting like that" I looked at him like he was crazy and thought why do you care! He kept walking down the isle and sat with his friend, Danney. When I got off the bus I walked into the garden i planted in the spring. I sat on the log i made as a seat. My dog ran around the corner and greeted me, it looked almost if she smiled, and then she realized I was in a sad mood. I said aloud," I guess you are my only friend now," then I scratched her ear and she licked my hand almost as if saying, its all gonna be ok. Oh how I was so lonely that week, then something happened, there was going to be a little party at Melodys house. I decided to go, because I needed to get out and have some fun. Its summer break might as well do something i thought to myself. Friday came and I got ready for the party, I dressed in some black skinny jeans, and a pink T-shirt that said,"Cool shirt, sell it at parties." I decided to cut my long bangs that hid my face, now its more of a feather, then I put my hair in a pony tail.
I thought it was pretty decent so I headed towards Melody's home, which was five blocks down. I when I arrived some girl said, nice hair dew. I thought nothing of the compliment, but I said thanks anyway. When I was inside I realized almost everyone I disliked were there. I was about to leave when James cam toward me and said "you cut your bangs, it looks nice" I said nothing to him, i just looked at him with a look like whatever. he said "look I'm sorry for ignoring you", I said "It doesn't matter, its already been done, but I guess... I'll forgive you"
I didn't want to, but I did. He gave me a smile, but it didn't look like a good happy smile, it looked like it was a evil smile.
A few months passed and we were a month into the school year. I truly trusted him, and we were best friends again. One day I was in the yard playing with my dog, Raven, when he came from behind and hugged me, i was cought by surprise. I couldn't move. Then he said " I know you like me!" I was caught again by surprise and all I could think of was did I like him anymore, I thought and I was sure i did. The only thing i said was "m-maby" he smiled and left. The next day I was so embarrassed, I couldn't believe he told everyone! He looked at me in the hall and said "Stupid, stupid you, you fell for it! To think I thought you were smart!" I was crushed, I felt stupid and heartbroken. I heard a group of people laugh. I got so mad, I went up to him slapped him and said "I knew you were a bad person to begin with, I should have never trusted you, Also Shanna said she had a great time with you last Tuesday!I heard a bunch of "ooh" "haha, burn" I smiled and walked home in the middle of lunch.

I'm still upset and I still cry about him, it was more embarrassing than anything. We weren't meant to be together, and hes an evil person in my opinion. I hope he goes through the pain I went through. If you had pain like this, I'm sorry, no one deserves that! Bye... ~Caily