slave for love
jenna
21 Sep, 2011 05:54 AM
Hi all my name is Jenna and I am writing this story to get everything that I feel out in the open.
I have fallen deeply in love with a guy that always cheats on me, I have come to the point where I just expect him to cheat. I know he doesn't love me because he is only nice to me when he feels like being nice, otherwise I am just a poor bitch "whose poor background" has fucked up her life. I have been honest to him he knows my past and he told he shed tears when I had told him about how life was for me when I was younger, meanwhile that was a lie he was telling everyone and making fun of me.
Everyone told me steer clear from him he is a cheat and I just could not let go. He always made me feel inferior and I wanted him around because I loved him I never expected much just his love.
Two days ago, I find out that he never loved me although he swore on everything holy that he did. I was a burden to him and he only kept me so that he would not be lonely whether I was dead or alive did not matter as long as he could have someone with him he was fine.
He mocked my love, used me and then through me to the vultures, I feel hurt, broken, betrayed and most of all I have lost all self respect for myself, I just want to cry and go to sleep and never awake. He always said I have no self confidence and he played on my emotions, he has someone that is prettier and funnier and better than I am, I just pray after I build my strength he will not come and hurt me again.....Please pray I have the strength to stay away.....oh so help me god I would end up being this man's slave for eternity.
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Comments
Post a Comment19 Jan, 2012 05:38 AM
SAME 2U DEAR.....................
20 Jan, 2012 07:51 PM
One thing one has to learn to believe is that one will be what one wants to be. If one does not even have the conviction to believe in oneself then what right does one have to believe in others?
I believe that you are of more worth than you think. Believe in it or my words are but a waste of time
Best wishes.
21 Jan, 2012 05:08 AM
Like u my also stry but i still hope tht one day will come he will realize my love
21 Jan, 2012 04:40 PM
I agree with moonlight dreamer.
You are more than what you think. It seems to me that you can't stay away from sadness and hurt because you choose to. He doesn't make you happy, so why bother with him? It's like knowing the stove is hot and still touching it after your hand is burnt.
Stop trusting in man, instead, trust in the Lord. You will find him if you seek Him with all your heart.
21 Jan, 2012 04:47 PM
The saying goes, "If you walk away and he doesn't chase you, keep walking". Well since he cheats on you, you should be running as fast as you can away from him. Leave him, better yourself, and show him that you are more than what he thinks of you. I don't know where you are in life but if you haven't done these things, go to college, get a good paying job. Become a person you would want to be. There are real mean in this world that will treat you like a lady. Keep your head and standards high.
God Bless
21 Jan, 2012 04:48 PM
men*
sorry
22 Jan, 2012 06:19 AM
it pains me that you go true all this in the name of love, we all have stories to tell but there is a better story within us we havent touched and we can only get there when we believe in our selves. You are more than wat you thnk you are. You are a champion!
23 Jan, 2012 01:05 PM
I kno how u fl. I'm goin thru the same thing. We Just gotta b strong u kno.
23 Jan, 2012 09:34 PM
The good thing is that you are praying for strength, god will give you that through time!!!! Wake up everyday with a positive affirmation! love everyone but love yourself as well!
27 Jan, 2012 01:40 AM
Hey u need not worry about such idiots..just forget u ruined ur lyf..only think of the positive things that happened with u..i know its tough but u can do it..think of how good he was..he was atleast trying to pretend in front of u..that is just enough to show he cared that much..but ofcourse!that is not love..but never mind..don't bother..just think of those sweet moments and forgive him..for he will realise the importance of u and u will realise the happiness in forgiving him..Be happy..dont worry friend!All the best..u have lot more to go..lyf is not going to end..u have a long way to go..take care sweetheart!!
27 Jan, 2012 04:40 AM
hey,,,,,,,, dont worry dear..... try to forget him.... bcoz i also hv the same story jz a little-bit differ............ so forget him nd enjoy the life....... take care
27 Jan, 2012 12:56 PM
Hey Im a female (: & I Just wanted to say that i hope you find someone better. i got played like that one time , and it hurt me baad ; but im better now and happily with someone (: Love <3
28 Jan, 2012 07:18 AM
You make me happy insid cause I wish to go to sleep an never wake up.just lisen to thes songs (Wash it all away by Evanescene Solitude by Evanescene My immortal but I sugest this one for u My last breath by Evanescene) every day and it takes your mind off of every thing ok.
29 Jan, 2012 09:27 AM
hey Jenna what i want to say is you have to think more about the others who cares about you and truly love you like your parents, friends! or maybe there is a boy who truly loves you and i think he would be more hurt when he sees you getting hurt like this. what is the point of loving someone who hurts you again and again? is he really that good that there no one better than him in the world??? forget him and find someone who turly loves you.
29 Jan, 2012 12:04 PM
lets just say this hes a slut.He just comes back to u so he can use u again oks
30 Jan, 2012 01:36 AM
I too felt d same wat u r feeling nw. Jus pray 2 God 2 giv u strength n try 2 stop all contacts wid him. Stay firm n make up your mind 2 b distant 4 him. He's nt worth ur love. N remembr, No man is worth your tears n d 1 who's worth it,wont ever make u cry. All the best.
01 Feb, 2012 12:53 AM
look, this world makes us selfish we have to be in order to survive if this man hurts you then stay away and look for something that makes you happy your body and your mind are your temple dont get down for someone else you and only you is what important so dont be sad girl pick yourself up and look at yourself becouse you are pritty a woman that can give so mutch love is a rare gem <3
01 Feb, 2012 08:20 AM
U dnt hv to wory urslf grl,lyf is a race.So keep movn nd 4get d pst
03 Feb, 2012 11:07 AM
Wat u had done thats right yar but i think so u wil never forget to him coz hi is ur first love.
08 Feb, 2012 04:57 AM
jst belive in life im sure tht u will get ur true love who will alwayz care for u jst forget about ur first love n think about life !!!
15 Feb, 2012 10:51 AM
umentioned at the end that u pray that at the end he doesnt comeand hurt u again... im sayin u shudnt let him bac in ur life after the things he did to u.. i have respect for u, but he haves no right to play with anybodys heart and this was BAD... he played u aweful and that not right, hes no good... step away from him completely and dnt let him hurt u no more.. wish u luck:)
20 Feb, 2012 10:58 PM
Hot or not, I would say that you let go of him. So what if he's "the school hottie"? Your relationship with him is not exactly good. It would only lead to physical abuse. I mean, I get that you love him. And I respect that. It,s just that knowing that he doesn,t love you is kind of disheartening, you know? But if you still love him after what he had done to you, I'd say talk to your friends. Ask them how you would solve this problem. Ask them for advice. It doesn't hurt to ask for help, right? I might not be a good advice giver but I hope I helped you in some way. Good Luck and I hope you pass on this problem. :)
27 Jun, 2012 08:05 AM
Nobody can forget his or her first love ive been trting to forget mine since 3 months but i cant i really loved him and he didnt believe me. I dont reall care now cause ive moved on and i dont really care about him but im still hurt cause he just left me like that