22 Dec, 2016 02:07 AMI don't know.
That simple sentence brings up so many bad memories; recent and old.
A sentence i've said so many times.
"What do you wanna eat?"
I don't know.
"What's your favorite ice cream?"
I don't know.
"Why are you sad?"
I don't know.
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Tags:
Sad,
Suicide,
Suicidal,
Depressed,
Depression,
Death,
FamilyVotes: 1037317
26 Nov, 2016 11:42 PMShe asked me today if I was okay today.
Again the next day, over and over again.
She knew me to well, better than I ever did.
Answering everyday "I'm fine, okay?"
She just stared at me, my black eyes hopefully revealing nothing
I closed my eyes, eventually the years turned and so did she
She turned her back on me, because i never answered her the truth
Always answering her "I'm fine."
Once opon a dream
I wished to be happy
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Tags:
Hopeless,
Sadness,
FamilyVotes: 414097
17 Nov, 2016 12:13 AMI used to have this dream years ago let me tell you though
it started with a smile and a wave on the patio,
then a flicker in the sky it showed a shadow.
but wait mum where'd you go I swear I just seen you though.
The sky would start to fall and I would scream but you were a no show.
Then my skin would slowly freeze as the world around me began to go.
Its okay I get it now seeing this tornado,
I'm nothing to you mum I guess this is like a puppet show.
Pick me up tear me down maybe I'm Dynamo,
ill fix myself up while you're drunk in the skid row,
Alone is how I'm feeling when I wake up and realise that I despise
the look in my eyes figuring out this nightmare is never gonna demise
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Drunk,
Depression,
Mom,
Dying,
Addction,
Family,
Drugs,
Abuse,
Sad,
Death,
Hope,
Faith,
GodVotes: 342771
08 Jun, 2016 09:35 AMFeeling alone now more than ever,
wishing you were here right next to me,
my heart is beating so uncontrollably
my eyes are tearing í can't control it.
I miss you mom,
I miss you now,
I miss you always.
I never thought that you being gone would've been so painful.
I never thought of you leaving me not for a minute not for a while.
I always thought of us forever,
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Lost Love,
Mother,
Broken,
Broken Heart,
Suffering,
Family,
MissingVotes: 1532171
06 Dec, 2015 10:27 PMOh the anguish I have suffered
Lamenting, hurting, dying inside knowing what I did to you
Knowing my cruelty is what did this to you
Both you and I know what I did to hurt you so
But please don't hate me
I promise I didn't mean to
You were my foundation
Everything I know and love is because of you
And even when you left me
You had everything set up so I would become successful
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Tags:
Guilt,
Death,
Suicide,
FamilyVotes: 618588
28 Nov, 2015 10:16 PMHe sits on his death bed and stares at the clock,
tick tock he says, tick tock.
His daughter walks in and she is a mess,
filled with the fear that her father is dead.
her eyes fill with joy until she hears his last words,
and outside the window the birds start to chirp.
Her father lay limp, white on the bed,
as his daughter wishes that she also was dead.
So she starts to dream of the things she could do,
so she could end up like her father too.
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Tags:
Childhood Memories,
Memories,
FamilyVotes: 412637
26 Jan, 2015 10:40 PMIt always hurts;
tears burning these eyes.
Its like the devil feeding me;
all these dirty lies.
He loves watching me writhe;
in unbearable pain.
Rip my heart and hair out;
im past the point of insane.
Screaming and crying;
at the top of my lungs.
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Tags:
Depression,
Sadness,
Family,
RapeVotes: 867905
14 Sep, 2014 04:08 PMDear brother,
You've fallen down way to deep,
you can't find a way out, your stuck in a cell
that leads you to hell.
Your on this dark road
with no way out and your crying out for help,
but no one can hear your cries.
You said you needed to deal with this on your own,
but it departed you from your own.
Dear brother,
I tried to show much love,
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Tags:
Hurt,
Hatred,
Sadness,
Darkness,
Pain,
Brother,
FamilyVotes: 328007
01 Jul, 2014 12:16 PMUnbearable pain that's deep down inside,
You feel it, I feel it, it's pain I can't hide.
I'll never give up, I won't go away.
You kids are my life, my hearts where you stay.
It's shattered and broken from me missing you,
It's hurting so bad, must be hurting you too.
I can't make things better, I can't get you back.
Dad knows you are hurting but he's selfish and slack.
That sickening feeling that's deep in our hearts,
Is all there because, we're kept far apart.
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Tags:
Losing Your Kids,
Family,
FatherVotes: 211646
08 Oct, 2013 02:20 PMDear Dad,
Why did you leave me?
I need you so bad.
Things are getting complicated.
I don’t know where to turn.
The darkness is closing in.
Please don’t let it get me daddy.
Where are you now?
My tears are falling.
I feel so dead inside.
My only release causes harm.
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Tags:
Alone,
Sad Poems,
Death,
Depression,
Father,
FamilyVotes: 121989