It was during 8th grade year that I first saw her. She was beautiful, but I couldn't admit that I wanted her. I lied to myself, while yearning for her. I remember a friend telling me his friend liked her, my heart raced. I wonder why? Soon I became attached to her. I would often take glance at her secretly. Looking back at the clock just too take a glance at her. Faking a stretch just just take a glance at her. Soon I began to realize where this was going. It was weird because I had a dream that warned me to not fall in love with her. I didn't understand it. Maybe it was because I was still in love with my first love in 4th grade. Although I was in love with another girl I couldn't stop thinking about her. I eventually stopped myself though. Freshmen year... [Read More]
Tags: Heartbreaks, One Sided Crush, Hope, HopelessThis is a story about my second and last effort at loving anybody. They always say to you that "true love will triumph over others". And I can say to you that that's not true. Not for me at least. We were both 13 at the time, and we'd just been transitioned from elementary to middle school. I first met her during our English class. I'm still not used to the settings of a government school, so I'm rather quiet. She's the school's brightest student but everybody hated her on how she is always answering all the questions and being outspoken and really confident in herself, but she has no friends at the time. She was alone. I learned her name when we were doing a group work which is to introduce and say a bit about ourselves using the English language. Shankri's her name. The moment I first looked... [Read More]
Tags: Crush, Heartbroken, Broken, Hurt, Painful, Unloved, One Sided, Giving Up, Sad, Missing You, HopeIt’s time again to ponder about what zyan is feeling again. To be honest I’m holding back the tears that express how I’m feeling right now. I’m sad, depressed, lost, confused, and scared. This talk of cece and I breaking up and her moving on right away to some other person hurts. That’s how you know that your relationship is poor and going down hill. I’m hurting everyday because of this feeling. I don’t want this feeling. It hurts so much and I hold onto it like I’m holding a knife and pressing up against my skin waiting for the time until I crack down and decide to finally cut myself and bleed out. I want love and compassion from my partner and when it feels like you're the only one contributing to the relationship it hurts. You’re confused whether she’s interested in you still or not. There are many... [Read More]
Tags: Alone, Sad, Suicide, Suffering, Story, Secret, Hurt, Heartbroken, Hopelesswhy? Why? Why? That man.... his name is john, nice looking guy... bestfriend since first year in colage.... he was so perfect to me.... his eyes, the way he talk, his cutest smile..... He always nice to me.. when Im in trouble, he will be there to help me.... texting me at night and talk about assignment. Remember my birthday..... he make me fall in love with him soo much.... All this time... I thought our feeling are same.... And that time 16 September 2014.... On my birthday.. he give me a huge pink teddy bear and a chocolate....i stared at the doll almost 2 hours... and i have decided to tell him abou my feeling that I have been keep for 4 years..... Calling him that night Me: hey you... thanks for the gift you:welcome... its your bday... someone like you deserve to have the best gift Me: there... [Read More]
Tags: Heartbroken, Feelings, Painful, Sad, Love Hurts, Hopeless, Death, MemoriesIn reality there are really those people who were meant to fall inlove with each other but never meant to be together. Isn't sad that somehow someone has filled in the emptiness inside you yet he can never be yours? I'm amara. 22 years of age and working as a nurse somewhere in the middle east. I had a long time lesbian partner before i went here for my job but all of a sudden the distance between us made me feel falling out of love with her. I feel so empty and so blue. It feels like i love her but i'm not inlove with her anymore. We have fights everyday that caused our relationship to be over. I felt sad after that. Everyday i started writing poems, sad letters, listen to sad songs just to get in with my loneliness. I often ask myself "how does it feel... [Read More]
Tags: Love, Pain, Hurt, HopelessA TRUE STORY OF MY BEST FRIEND... When I think about love, the first think comes to my mind is GOD. GOD loves us some much, his creation is so perfect, so that we can do any work by ourselves. Till now, we reached from the bed of Oceans to the end of our solar system in space to learn and gain more and more knowledge. GOD is so powerful, without almighty we can’t lead our daily life, we all see GOD everyday but we never realize that anytime, this world is a gift of GOD, to share with each one of us. So ultimately, all religions in this world are meant to lover each other but that seems to be not happening. We, humans are so abhor to each other, they can’t understand the meaning of life and the words of religions. Even sometime GOD seems to be blind.... [Read More]
Tags: True Story, True Love, Trust, Tragedy, Wife, Regret, Cheated, Real, Love Story, Loneliness, Love Hurts, CryingI have a story. But I don't want to write it as it opens a closed chapter of my life. it lasted for a very long time and is still on going. Therefore i have decided to write a true story about many people that has been bullied. I want people to understand what we/you have been through. A shrink does not know how we feel. A mental hospital does not know how we feel. Medication does not know how we feel. they say "It takes one to know one" that is what I believe is the mental hospital, the skrink, the medication we stuff down every day. I want the world to know how it is. I want them to actually cry over something they don't understand. I want them to cry over someone they don't know. I want them to cry because we are strong. Because we lived... [Read More]
Tags: Struggle, Sadness, Hope, Bullied, Teen, Hopeless, Help, Lost, Love, LonelySinging and acting has clichés, some accept and hail you for talent, others see you as the spawn of Beelzebub himself. My (former) Father was the later. He believed that I was in a homosexual relationship with my best friend, thought I sold my soul to the devil, called me "fat ass," or "faggot" and even saying things as horid as " If you don't lose your virginity by the time you're 15, I'm buying you a call girl." Because of the verbal abuse I was receiving, I saw a therapist, upon discovering this, my father disowned me. It hurts when you are so disgusting, even your own father considers you unfit to be his son. His last words he ever said to me were, "Son, its a fucking disgrace my name is attached to you." The look of hatred in his eyes was just like the one of the... [Read More]
Tags: Depression, Disowned, Hopeless, Disgrace, Hate, Bullied, Alone, SadShe's an innocent little girl named Natasha who grew up with no one and nothing. Her mother didn't have time for her or her sisters. Her mother had time for drugs and sex. She was 4 and she was confused. She asked God everyday why her mommy didn't love her. Natasha asks her mommy why she doesn't love her and her mother says "Because you're worthless! You're ugly and disgusting and you're not my kid!" Natasha just cries, she doesn't understand why her mother says the things that she says. She's cold, hungry and scared. Her mother never feeds her or her sisters. Instead her mother sits there and eats in front of them, making her and her sisters smell the food but if they try to eat it, they know they'll get beat,so they go to bed starving. Natasha stinks and is extremely dirty. Her mom didn't pay any... [Read More]
Tags: Sad, Sadness, Broken, Sad Story, Pain, Painful, Hurt, Help, Hopeless, Alone, Crying, Confused, Cutting, Giving UpIsn't it funny how people think they know you? They think they know every single thing about you and your feelings. How it will effect you, how you'll feel after they say it to you. They don't realize what they're doing to you. It's almost funny, but not quite. Everybody says how girls are vicious and mean, and it's true. I once read in a book that women have their trays of sharp pointy tools, like at the dentist office. But I have a better analogy. It's like getting stabbed in the heart with a knife. Only it doesn't hit the heart right away. It gets deeper every day by milimeters. The blood that pours out are the tears that are emptied into the pillow late at night when no one's listening. The deeper it goes, the more you start to think about killing yourself. Once it reaches the heart,... [Read More]
Tags: Love, Hate, Never, Forget, Pain, Sorrow, Hurt, Killing, Crush, Hopeless, Sadness