It seems as if everybody is always happy around you, but you're the only person who seems to be depressed. I was the type of girl who didn't need anybody to reply on too. I didn't need anybody to make me happy. I didn't mind staying home by myself. As I became older and watched movies it seem to be that relationships were the key to happiness. All I wanted to do was feel loved. It seemed like all my friends were in love and happy. I understand that we're still young and have our whole life ahead of us, but when someone makes you feel wanted, it's one of the best feelings. I met a guy on MySpace, and corny as it sounds that was the thing back then. He said he saw me at school and I caught his eye. He's was a year older then me, and... [Read More]
Tags: Love, Sadness, True Story, Cheater, Breakup, Sad, Hurt, Depressed, Betrayed, Unloved, Pain"Oh, Lena. I don't know how you do it. You're so strong all the time. I am not sure how you keep it together. Thank you so much for listening to me. It means the world to me." I'm the kind of girl that lives to make other people feel better about themselves, to help them see the light at the end of the tunnel. I am the kind of girl that you will see jumping around singing at the top of my lungs during worship. I am the kind of girl that puts on a show. It started back in 6th grade. I'm 16 now, but December 4th, 2008, still haunts me. I was the nerdy, quiet girl. I was in band and it was the night of our very first concert. During 8th period we received a note saying the concert was now canceled due to "unforeseen circumstances."... [Read More]
Tags: Death, Self Harm, Hurt, Tears, Recovery, Sad, Depressed, FrustrationHigh School, they say it is the best times of your life. They say you make friends and you find your own little place, and you walk on the path to the rest of your life. High School, they said it was such a glorious place. It looks so great on the television. They glamorize it and ignore those who are hurting. They ignore the outcasts. High School is great if you know what you want to do for the rest of your life. Too bad that's not me. I'm the type of girl who hates it here. I look different, I listen to non-mainstream music. I get weird looks, and people whisper. To them I look like a psycho who lost it. But the sad reality, I'm just like those judgmental people. I keep to myself now-a-days. I try to think of the happier days, the days when I... [Read More]
Tags: Bullied, Suicide, Hurt, Judged, Fitting In, Outcast, Sad, Alone, DepressionI'm hurt. I'm sad. I'm angry. I'm frustrated. I'm distressed. Unlike a lot of people, I have some friends that love and care about me and I have a somewhat amazing family. I guess the reason I feel like this is that its not enough for me. I have 2 TRUE friends that I know care about me and would be there for me if I really needed them. Is that enough? It could be. I have an amazing mom, who gives the most amazing hugs. Two brothers and a sister, who love me even if they don't show it. The reason that I am now 4 hours away from my favorite people is because of the stupid teenage drama, my stupid father and stupid liars. Drama is the friends who pretend to like you because you have a license. Drama is when people start fights over things that don't... [Read More]
Tags: Betrayed, Alone, Depressed, Sad, Love, Hurt, Family, UnlovedA 13 year old girl leading a normal life in a middle school where everyone was fake. No one cared about the good things in your life...just the bad. I met you there. You were with her when I met you. I thought of you as any other guy in the school. My best friend and I hung out with your girlfriend but you and I never talked. The first time we said hi to each other was just like anything else I've ever done. I didn't give it much thought. It was your last year...and we had only been talking for a couple months. I never imagined myself falling for you. We became best friends...We talked about anything and everything. Remember the nicknames? Monkey and Skittles...yeah, I remember. I remember the pain in your eyes when she broke up with you. I remember how bad I felt to see... [Read More]
Tags: Sad, Love, Unloved, Cry, Lost, Alone, Missing, Breakup, Hurt, PainWho would have known that kids would have so many regrets when they grew up. Who would have known the pain you feel in your heart when its to late. Who would have known that you cared if though it didn't seem like it at times. Who would have known that you wouldn't live forever like I thought you would when I was a kid. Who would have known that my hero would get sick. Who would have known that I could talk to you when at times it felt like I couldn't. Who would have known that we would get so close. Who would have known that even though we are close I want more time to spend with you. Who would have known that I wanted you by my side every step of the way. Who would have known that you were proud of me. Who would have... [Read More]
Tags: Love, Father, Family, Memories, Hurt, MissingIt was when I was 12, and I met a boy named Ethan. He was very shy,and wouldn't talk much. Suddenly, he began to talk to me a little. He would talk to me more and more,with each passing day. We traded phone numbers, and we grew closer and closer. One night, he and I kissed for the very first time. It felt like a lovers paradise. 3 years passed (This current year) and we were closer then ever. 6 months ago,he grew shy again,and eventually we talked less and less. 3 months ago,he called me suddenly and asked me to meet him at the park. His voice sounded very rusty,and also very pained and weak. I agreed,and 2 hours later,i was sitting on a cold bench in the park. It was creeping closer to midnight, and I grew very tired of waiting. I also grew very hurt, since he... [Read More]
Tags: Lost Love, Heartbreak, Stabbed, Sadness, Sick, Love, Hurt, Memories, SadSo, get this. I was sitting around my house, listening to sad songs that any other time would make me cry. Why did I want to cry? Because of the worst mistake I have ever made and how numb I had come to most everything in my life. Here is my story (perhaps it's not the saddest, but I think that maybe if I just tell someone I'll maybe be able to actually feel something again besides depression, and since I'm too embarrassed about it to tell anyone in public, why not tell people who have no idea who I am, right?) BEWARE: I'm Pouring my heart out right now so it will be long. Don't feel obligated to read it all. But if you do, I hope you learn from my mistake. So, I've always been a shy person, I'm not the popular kid at school. Don't get me... [Read More]
Tags: True Story, Depression, Sad, Betrayal, Love, Long Distance, Hurt, Alone, PainSo I was 14 I know how stupid it sounds to be in love at fourteen but that's just how it ended up. He was 17 when I first met him and he was perfect to me. I needed a ride home from school one day and he volunteered to because he had to his friend home that lives near me. So I went with him I was extremely shy and just sat there in the car as he went on and on about the craziest of stories. That's when I knew I liked him he was so funny and tried to get me to talk so many different times I was just to shy and whenever I said something it never came out the way I wanted it to. So about a week later I needed another ride home and so once again he drives me home and gives... [Read More]
Tags: Love, Betrayed, Sad, Hurt, Cry, SadnessWell, it all started in elementary school, his name was Jeffrey, had beautiful long hair. He was neglected, beat and bullied. He liked me in there and I did the same. In high school, we were best of friends, until they started bullying me for Liking him He ignored it blinded by love, I couldn't be hated so I told him something I HATE MYSELF FOR DOING THIS!!!!!!!!!!! I told him I liked another guy, I could see the hatred and sadness in Jeff's eyes, he came with scars to school. Teachers nor students cared... I was still in love with him, even though he did not know that. He invited me to his place and we ended up making out...Word got out somehow and we were in deep shit I could only save myself I couldn't save him so I told him the same lie AGAIN. During the next... [Read More]
Tags: Suicide, Death, Pain, Cutting, Betrayed, Bullied, Alone, Hurt, Sad