Yesterday was fathers day, I was on Facebook scrolling through endless pictures of all my friends with their fathers knowing I never had that and never would. why? Because you replaced me with your new wife and kids.Its been 1 full year and you still haven't called to tell me you got married. The whole family went but no one told me. No one called saying,Hey Clarissa your dad just got married. I had to find out from my cousin through facebook 3 months AFTER you got married! I haven't talked to you for the past 3 months because I choose not to. Do you know that I went to the hospital for cutting too deep on my birthday? Did you know that I stay up all night looking at the new pictures of you and "your family". do you remember in December when I called you crying saying that... [Read More]
Tags: Dad, Mom, Cutting, Sorry, Sad, Cut, Wrist, Emo, Love, Daughter, Unloved, Sadness, PainWell to start out, I'm 19 now and worked EMS and while I did I started to notice this girl more and more until the point we met up one night. When we met up everything had to be on the down low. But we sat and talked for hours upon hours laughing and having a good time. This girl was 20 years older than myself but age doesn't matter to me. So meeting up became pretty regular. Talking on the phone all the time texting, I was really starting to like her by now. We would drive out back roads and sit and talk and listen to the radio. When I'd look in her eyes I'd get lost and just the way she smiled, laughed, would tickle me and mess around I loved it. Being around her was starting to be a part of my routine. Now she had... [Read More]
Tags: Deep Depression, Still Messed Up, Pain, Unloved, Heartbroken, SadnessIt was a Tuesday, the day it happened. The day I made the biggest mistake of my life. It happened when me and my beloved wife Olivia got into an argument and even threw around the word divorce. Which now breaks my heart from all we had been through of a 16 year relationship, a 11 year marriage, and having an 8 year old beautiful daughter named Sarah. When I first met Olivia it was love at first sight and from there on out we were never apart. So now thinking about this fight brings me to tears. Sarah who had been listening to the whole fight and couldn't bare to hear it especially after hearing the word divorce made her start bursting into tears in her room. Once I had enough of the argument I barged out and just before I slammed the door shut I heard my daughter... [Read More]
Tags: Love, Heartbreak, Suicide, Pain, Depression, Death, SadnessHello my name is Andrew, and this my story. When I was a child grew up in a loveless household, my parents used to beat me and I didn't have any siblings to comfort me. My childhood back then was agonizing, but now it just seems like a big blur... except for my junior and senior year in high school. That's when I met Luaren. She was so beautiful, but no one knew her because she was so shy. I always stared at her from a far and sometimes she would catch me staring and just give a little smile. But I still knew that someone like me didn't deserve her. Someone like me didn't deserve any woman. Someone like me didn't deserve love. But no matter what through junior year I kept on wishing if I could be with her but never having the confidence to even talk to... [Read More]
Tags: Death, Pain, Lonely, Love, Heartbreak, Rape"Just walk away!!," the words darted right out of his mouth. "Its not that hard, just walk away from me!" I knew it wasn't hard, walking away, that's the easy part. It wasn't walking away I was scared of, its the fact of knowing if I walked away you wouldn't come after me and that's what hurt the most. Tears started flowing down my face, just hold me right now, I cant take this. I never thought I would lose the one that meant everything to me, the one I gave my heart to, the one I shared everything with. After everything we had to go through you're gonna tell me to walk away and forget. You were never a part of me life. It's hard to forget someone who gave you so much to remember. My whole life changed because of you, we had it all and you ruined... [Read More]
Tags: Hurt, True Story, Depression, Unloved, Heartbroken, Sad, PainThis year of school brought me something, that I'll never forget...a wonder full feeling that I want to hold in for ever. A boy came to our school, in the same type of class as me, but in the different grade. I'm in the 10th grade, and he's in the 9th grade. I fell in love with him, when we first talked, and the whole thing was so magical. I was blind of happiness when he gave me a hug, or when he kissed me on the cheek, or anything that he did and was sweet. I never felt something so strong like this, even I had some boyfriends before, the feeling was never this strong, and the whole world went in a pink bubble, and I just went crazy every time he went to me, or talked to me. Of course outside I looked cool, but inside I shouted... [Read More]
Tags: Pain, Friend, Best Friend, Not LovedEarly in 2011, I felt as if my life was in a rut. I woke up, showered, went to school, came home, homework, and went to sleep. I never did anything different. Until Samantha came into my life. She was everything I wanted in a girl. She was absolutely perfect. Whenever I saw her, my entire day lit up as she ran into my arms. She was my true first love, first kiss, my everything. It was amazing being with her. I cared for her with everything I had. I was in love with her. But then, when school was ending, and summer was young, I couldn't go to school and see her. She told me, she was getting lonely. I sent her a message. A very, very, sappy lovey-dovey message that I never really wanted to send. I was just caring about her so she wouldn't feel bad anymore.... [Read More]
Tags: Depressed, Lonely, Suicidal, Lost, Upset, Pain, Agony, Regret, Care, Unloved, ForgottenI grew up in a happy home with a loving family that supports me. I know this might not sound like a typical sad story, but when I went into the eighth grade, my life crumbled. I started the year like my seventh grade year, with all my friends and the same teachers. By the first week, life started to change. My best friend decided to hate me for no reason, and she made everyone in my middle school hate me, so all day I would have no one to talk to and when we had to pick partners in class projects, I would either be by myself or with my assistant teacher. I started to hate myself and my bubbly personality withdrew. I started to do poorly in school and I got in many more fights with my siblings. Then the teasing started. People I barley knew came up... [Read More]
Tags: Happy, PainLove is such a big word, yet used in such various ways. Its a word someone can abuse or can be used to give life. Its waking you every morning and knowing that the beautiful sun will kiss you in the face and the birds will orchestrate the most beautiful song that I deserve. When love hits you, you don't see it coming yet you don't feel it coming. It comes to move you and shake the very essence of existence you hold dear. Can you breathe under water, probably not. Can you fly without wings? You cant.... Now, can you feel pain in love? That's the question i ask myself everyday. My roommate Pauline was my high school best friend. We went to college together and shared an apartment together. She was my sister that i have always wanted. For 2 years, my life became an song on repeat.... [Read More]
Tags: Breakup, Heartbroken, Pain, SufferingI grew up with friends that you would always remember. The good ones who would always be there for you. But I can never forget how they were always broken somehow. One of my friends was Jordan. Her father worked extremely late hours, her mom drank every night and smoked every day. Her older sister had every tattoo and piercing possible, her brother made her feel like an idiot and she had to care for her younger sister who was a toddler. Then of course her dad got repositioned and moved to another state. I think I was her only friend to, that person who would always listen no matter how crazy. Then there was Courtny and Samantha. They lived in a 3 bedroom house with 4 older brothers and dad. I'm not sure about their mother though sometimes it sounded like a divorce other times an accident. Their dad... [Read More]
Tags: Lost, Love, Friends, Pain