I never actually knew or realized that I was a hardcore lesbian. I was a simple young jolly child who liked running and loved to compete with others. A typical tomboy like me was really nothing special, but the desire to impress females was a unique aspect of mine. I never understood that because I was simply ignorant in the early stages of my life, but I always hung out with the guys simply because it felt natural to do so. I played sports like guys did, teased girls like guys did, fought with guys like guys did, and just did everything that the guys did. I considered myself much more male than female and it felt good to impress the females. I just... Liked the feeling. In middle school, everything changed. A beautiful woman entered my life. It was in 6th grade that I fell completely in love with... [Read More]
Tags: Heartbreak, Lost, Love, Life, LesbianAs a kid, I always wondered why people cut? What was the intrigue in it? It never made sense to me. Was it to get attention or to prove something to someone? I just couldn't understand that. Why would you want to harm yourself just because of issues that can be resolved? Why scar yourself over someone who doesn't even know it, who doesn't even care? But then one day, I grew up. I fell in love and got hurt. I then realized the appeal to cut. I have loved twice. My first love lasted for roughly 4 years or so. Getting over it felt impossible but it's true, time eventually heals everything. People say nothing can replace your first love. I disagree with them. You can fall in love again. But loving again is as good as having a death wish. When you fall in love for the second... [Read More]
Tags: Love, Lonely, Cut, MissingEvery time shes with him, the world doesn't exist anymore. But what she doesn't understand is, why doesn't he realize that. To him, her love and her honest feelings are all melodramatic. She doesn't understand why he doesn't believe her even though he loves her. Why does he have to break her heart every time she smiles. Why can't he believe her for once. She doesn't understand why he takes her for granted. Is she not good enough for him. Is he with her just to have someone. Everything she does is to please him yet it just turns out to be another mistake to him. She just doesn't why she's treated like that. She cries for him but he doesn't see the tears. She begs for forgiveness even though she isn't at fault. She puts up a smile so that he doesn't see all the pain she hides and... [Read More]
Tags: Love, Hurt, PainIt’s been over three years since Jack and I were a thing. And I still miss him everyday. Some days are easier then the rest and others I feel as though a knife is ripping through my heart. When I think of him I feel sad, sometimes even angry at him and myself, and other times I just really feel empty. I’ve begun to regret ever being intimate with him though I know it was our intimacy that brought us so close together. Why is it what once felt so right feels so wrong now? Three years, in those three years we’ve probably talked a handful of times. A few texts here and there at first but after a while even those stopped. Now the only time I hear his name is when I’m told by AJ the girl he once and probably still loves that he wishes me a... [Read More]
Tags: Love, Broken, Tears, Friendship, PastThe first time I talked to you I was 13 years old, you were 11; it was December 2008. You were my cousin's girlfriend at the time, and we clicked instantly. It turned out that we had so much in common, and never stopped texting each other; it was a 24/7 conversation. Though we never had met each other, we shared our deepest thoughts and secrets. I knew that I could trust you with anything and everything and that you would never judge me for it. You and I were best friends, instantaneously. To this day, I have yet to find anyone like you; nobody can ever be as amazing as you. In about March of 2009, I was going through major issues in my life, but you were always there for me. I know I didn't tell you how much of an impact you had on my life during... [Read More]
Tags: Sad, Friendship, Sad Story, Separation, Love, DepressingI've written about this before, but I guess this is going to be the 'uncut' version. I will bare my soul. I won't hold anything back. There is things I will say that I may not like, but I say them because they are the truth. She's Beautiful. She's Gorgeous. She's Amazing. She's the best thing that has ever happened to me. She's just everything I have ever wanted and more. But she's not in my life anymore. I'm not in her life anymore. She doesn't love me anymore. She doesn't want me in her life anymore. I don't know if she hates me, but that's how it feels. At times it's felt like she has been unbelievably cruel to me. I'm sure she would say the same about me. She's lied, I've lied, we've both lied. At times we've been as bad as one another. What matters here though... [Read More]
Tags: Love, Heartbreak, HeartbrokenTo Everyone I Knew, I don't know what to feel anymore. One minute he's nice, the next he ignores me and acts as if I'm not there. I feel confused and hurt by his actions yet I knew what to expect all along. It hurts to be the wise one who gives useful advice to others yet the one who cannot benefit from that advice. I am beaten down by those questions which echo in my head, exploding with every heart beat. What do i do now? I hide away my suicidal thoughts, so no one knows when to expect me gone, dead. I won't tell anyone. If I die, I'll leave alone in silence. It would be better off that way. He wouldn't care though, so I might aswell ignore him back, when he holds my dead hand, I won't reply. Those screams for help linger in my soul.... [Read More]
Tags: Death, Confusion, Sadness, Hate, MiseryI'm a 17 year old girl. Yes I know what you're thinking, you don't know what it's like to feel that way about someone, you're too young. I know I'm probably not the most experienced when it comes to this, I know I'm probably not the most mature, but here goes nothing. It started in the last few weeks of term three at school. One of my male friends started to text me and talk to me all the time. We started to become closer and closer as the days went on. I opened up to him, I told him things I didn't usually tell other people willingly. I told him my problems and he tried to help me. Over those couple of weeks, I didn't realise it, but I was beginning to fall for him. Weirdly enough, I've known this boy for two years now, and had a crush... [Read More]
Tags: Heartbreak, Love, Hurt, Lovestory, LoveloveloveA little over a year ago, I hit what most would call rock bottom. I found myself sitting alone on my bed, tears flowing down my face, with everything in my life completely unknown. I sit up every night wondering if I deserve a second chance after what I did. I did a lot of things in my past that I am not proud of, I try to be good show everyone that I changed, nobody believes me or wants to believe me. I try so hard every day but it gets really hard. I hope someday my old friends my mom my sister will finally believe that I have changed I do try and I will keep trying until they see that too. I always thought that people change and they deserve a second chance. But in my case every second chance turns to more an turns to shit.... [Read More]
Tags: Friendship, Love, FamilyIt all started early in my eleventh year in school. I was attending Creekside High School alongside my two best friends Josh and Jack. Josh was the kind of kid who had a lot of mistakes in his past but was working on it and trying to become a better person. He was there for me and stuck up for me. But Jack was more than that. I fell for him really quickly and things were different between he and I. He had a girlfriend and I could tell they were in love but I don’t know. I can’t describe it. He and I can go months without talking or without seeing each other but when we finally reunite, we talk and laugh like no time has past since the last time we spoke to each other. I remember one night I was so upset about something that had happened... [Read More]
Tags: Depressed, Cheater, Love, Sad