Dear auntie, I miss you. I'm sorry I didn't visit you for 5 years. I'm sorry I never said I love you. I didn't visit you when you were in the hospital because I didn't want to see you like that. I didn't go to your funeral. Why? I couldn't stand the fact that the last time I would see you, You would be in a coffin. I'm sorry auntie. I love you so much. Love, Tu flaca My story: Summer of 2005 I went to visit my auntie, I was 5. I loved it I had so much fun.We went to the beach, went to rivers,took a walk through town. We left to go back home. Years pass by and my auntie calls us to see how we are doing. She asks me the same question every time, "when are you coming to visit?" I always said "Soon." She... [Read More]
Tags: Sad, Death, Unsaid Love, SadnessI don't know why I'm doing this. I'm so pitiful and no one cares. I guess I just need to vent. yes, this is a true story. I guess it all starts with no one really caring about me. I was the child who was ignored. The the child who was born for failure. Whatever. I'm over that, but what really pisses me off is that no one really started even looking at me until I got "pretty". I started wearing makeup. people actually talked to me. but they didn't care. I knew they didn't. I just wanted someone to talk to me for once. I went years without anybody even glancing at me and it felt good that people wanted to talk to me.. I started dating this boy who really cared about me.. well I don't know.. maybe he was just going through the motions like everyone else.... [Read More]
Tags: Hate, Life, Death, Suicide, Heart Break, Broken Heart, CuttingLet me just start off saying I still love him and he is all I had and everything to look forward to. Now that he's gone I have NOTHING!!!! Me and this guy Michael were dating for 4 months and we were in mad love with each other. Only problem is he is 18 and I'm 15 (about to turn 16). One day while I was at school the cops showed up at his house asking him if he was dating a kelia golden (which is me) and if he was he was going to be arrested and sent to jail over stagetory rape. So he said "No sir, I know OF her but I don't know her and I'm am NOT dating her". Which yeah it hurts but I can totally understand. At the time I didn't have a phone so when he needed to tell me something important... [Read More]
Tags: Broken, Hurt, True Story, Goodbye?, Death, SadI stared at the letter left in my locker after school. I read it over once, twice. I felt a pain in my chest as the words stabbed through my sensitive heart. My girlfriend of two years broke up with me in a note... I felt tears roll down my pale cheeks, clouding my vision and blurring the words on the paper. My hands trembled as I held the paper close to my heart, refusing to let it go. My walk to home was very lonely. Normally, my girlfriend and I would walk home together, hand in hand, laughing at random remarks in our conversation. The memories made my heart ache more and I buried my hands deeper into the pockets of my “Escape the Fate” hoodie, clutching the note that broke my heart. Once I got home, I dragged myself to my room, locking myself inside. Nobody was home... [Read More]
Tags: Suicide, Death, Depression, Cutting, Heartbreak, Unloved, SadI used to be the type of girl who wasn't popular but wasn't unpopular... Just average. I'd sit with classmates at lunch but wouldn't talk much. I guess I was socially awkward in a way. I had a few friends I would watch movies with and go out. Sometimes I could actually be myself around them. But one by one, they all had other friends and I was left alone. When I walked down the halls I would have my head downcast and ignore my surroundings. That was just middle school. Few weeks later my parents dropped a bomb. I'm moving out of Chicago Out To Orlando, Florida! I've heard stories of that place. Oh, I was terrified. After sometime, I decided I would change my perspective. I dyed my hair from a lame blonde to a midnight black with multi-colored streaked in it. I got rid of my glasses... [Read More]
Tags: Heartbroken, Separation, Love, Death, SadWell i don't really know where to start off this is by far the worst thing that has ever happened in my life... it started in 7th grade when I saw this beautiful girl in my class her name was Maddie and as soon as i saw her i knew she was the one and that I would marry her.. I didn't had the gut to talk to her until the summer before my freshman year we started dating for about 2 months until her friends screwed it up. I was devastated and ever since then I had been looking for a girl just to fill the void she left but no girl was ever the same just not her.. Went through all of freshman year with just being best-friend with her which was okay but I wanted a relationship but she just thought we were best=friends she didn't think... [Read More]
Tags: Hear, Death, Relationship, Separation, SadIt started 8 years ago when I met my best friend: Lauren Kirby. We met at a Pony Camp that I went to every year until I was old enough for horse camp. When we were all introducing each other, she made me laugh right away. We had to say our name, age, and something interesting about yourself. She said: "I'm Lauren Kirby. I'm 8 years old, and I'm a blonde". It may not be so funny to you, but I was 8 and I thought it was funny. We started talking, and we instantly hit it off. She was that camp friend that was pretty much the only one that you talked to because you found someone and were too nervous to make any other friends. We were in the same riding group which meant we went everywhere together. We sat by each other during every meal, and we... [Read More]
Tags: Seperated, Friendship, DeathI don't know how it happened. It was a regular day at school. Math had just finished and I walked back to my locker with some friends. We had gotten done early so we were talking, nothing of too much importance. Out of the corner of my eye I saw three men dressed in black walk down the stairs. I could not see their faces because they had masks on. None of us saw it coming. The first one pulled out a gun and the others followed suit. We all jumped into the room next to us when they fired. They didn't fire at us but up into the ceiling, as a warning. I heard screams coming from all directions including inside myself. The leader was saying something. He was about six feet or so. He was not skinny bu not heavy. He was telling everyone to get out into... [Read More]
Tags: Sacrifice, Death, CrimeWho knew a school hallway could change your life, for better or worse...I remember the day I saw him. Bright blonde dyed hair and brown eyes that told a thousand stories with one glimpse of the eye. He could capture any soul. He wasn't super smart nor was he stupid, but one thing he did was never give up hope without a smile. His smile shinned like the heavens shinned over earth. His smile was the light to my day, without light how can you see where you are heading? Up? Down? Wandering in the darkness is what he did to me once he left. Senior year in high school my best friend and I were going to see if the guy she liked would give her his number. That was the day I met him. Strumming his guitar in the far corner of the classroom, acting as if he... [Read More]
Tags: Love, Death, CancerJami's Diary 8th Grade Year I wish I wish I could tell her how I feel. Today I saw the most beautiful girl in the whole 8th grade class ,and the world. Jenny was her name, when i asked she spoke like an angel. I wish I could tell her how I feel... 12th Grade Year (Prom) I wish I wish I could tell her how I feel. Me and Jenny talked today. She really loves her boyfriend. They broke up and I had to comfort her after prom. She told me i was the best friend on the planet. I wish I could tell her how I feel... College Sophomore Year I wish I wish I could tell her how I feel. Jenny has grown even more beautiful if that's even possible. I saw her at a party with Derek. My heart sank, she was happy as ever. We... [Read More]
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