I can't see the beauty in my bad complexion and chipped fingernails, but he does. "you make my happy." he said. I never understood how. even though, he made my heart skip beats and bumps and bangs. he made me feel beautiful, something I'm certainly not. "you are beautiful." he was such a lovely liar. he'd lie about my long eyelashes and the curly baby hair on my neck. but his favorite was about loving me. so I'd just cry into his shoulder, inhaling like he was a expensive perfume, I knew I could never afford. one day he saw my eyes overflowing; "oh, you look so pretty when you cry." I waited for him to leave. like the way you wait for nightmares to come and steal away your dreams. I thought it wouldn't hurt. then it did. it was a mnemonic hurt that lived in my lungs and... [Read More]
Tags: Breakup, Unloved, Losthe is the guy that i ever wanted, in other words my ideal guy.. i thought someday he will love me too the way i love him, he is my classmate,one of my treasured friend we are in 2nd year high school when i feel something about him but i know to my self that it's impossible for him to love me. I hide my true feelings for him, pretend even it hurts me so much he have a girlfriend that time he was so madly in-love with her. But one day a news came to him that his girlfriend is having an affair with another guy, i watch him as he ignore everything that he hear , how i wish that girl would be me , so i can also feel how he love a girl. days pass so fast, i was so happy entering the room because i... [Read More]
Tags: Unloved, Love, HopelessI fell in love with this guy that I've had my eye on since 8th grade. As always, I'm the older one in the relationship. We've known each other, but never really thought we'd be together. We started talking through text, because my friend had his phone & called me from it & i ended up losing service & texted that number asking who it was. I couldn't believe it when i found out it was him. i was so happy (: we started dating May 30, 2010. I snuck out of my house a couple of times just to be with him, snuck him in a couple of times, because we were so in love! My family doesn't approve of interracial relationships, I'm white & he's black/white. He makes me so happy, but just recently things have been changing & i don't know what to do! He's so busy... [Read More]
Tags: Help, Unlovedso i went around the west Europe in a summer. i went to London, and then i met 2 guys. they are brothers. i noticed their niceness on the last day of the trip. i talked to one of these bros (the younger one). he's french and i didn't talk much but hes nice and we played together, we built bricks with some other friends of mine. his bro stood in a distance, staring at us. he might be too old to join. and then i stared at him. i noticed how adorable he is. he looks alot like the guy i met in my dream when i was 11. the dream was about me kissing a hot blond guy and the fact that these brothers are blondes (the older's hot) but i didn't have the courage to ask about him, neither to himself or to his lil bro that... [Read More]
Tags: Ignorance, Unlovedi met him through chat, it was during those times that i already given up my hope that finding real & true was just a mere fantasy. he was nice and sweet, a type of guy that could actually swept you off your feet. he has the looks, physique, intelligence and a character that no woman can refuse. we decided to give it a try, i was emotionally broken that time,at first there was no connection, no spark at the first meeting though i cannot deny the fact that there was something mysterious about him, after that i never expected anything from him, cause i felt nothing special is going to happen. but to my surprise he called me that night, telling me that he wanted to go out with me again and he also wants to know me better, so i said to my self why not give myself... [Read More]
Tags: UnlovedOn may 22nd 2010 I fell in love with a 15 year old, and I was only 13? he really didn?t care about my age, but still it bothers me. We are not dating anymore because he was just not taking anything seriously. All he talked about was sex, and he is talking about sex with a 13 year old? I AM 13 NOT 25! I had a feeling that he would have sex with me and leave me, I asked him that question and he laughed and said ?of course not!? but I didn?t believe him. He once called a girl Hun and beautiful, it really wasn?t ?OKAY? with me, I talked to him about it, but he would just always change the subject. He always changes the subject about my ?stuff? and he would always tell me what he wants to do with my ?stuff?. I talked to... [Read More]
Tags: Unloved, Pain, SorrowHere is my story... December 25th 2009 this was the exact date when I first fell in love... I fell in love with a guy named Marcus he was sweet and very cute. We always stay up and text and call each other every night. We loved each other SO much we never fought and we never had any problems. He was always there for me he would always make me smile, and laugh. He would text me every day nonstop! He would always say I love you in every text he sent me... He once told me that he is full Mexican BUT he wasn?t he is half white (and yes I don?t like it when people lie about their culture or race.) when I asked him if he would ever cheat on me and he said ?no? and I believed him. He also made a promise, the promise... [Read More]
Tags: Broken, Pain, Unlovedso, we have all herd about "love at first sight". well that's what happened for me. it took one night to know that he was the best thing in my life. he went to my school, & we had met on spring break. we became the best of friends. we would talk EVERY day. i could tell that kid anything, he knew me better then anyone else. then it was may or juneish when we both knew it was meant to be. June 8th 2010 was the day he became my boyfriend. i was so in love, he was the best thing that has ever happened to me. my life was perfect! we did things, like we would "take care" of each other, if you know what i mean. i would do ANYTHING for him, just to make him happy. i loved him so much, i would stay up all... [Read More]
Tags: Unloved, Lost, Pain, CryIt was a new year at a new school. I was shy and lonely. By the end of the first day I had only made two friends. Little did I know of what love meant. Her and I both loved art. That and science were the only two classes we had together. I would flirt with her and she'd giggle. That first year at a new school had been great. By the second year we were the best friends. We would hang out at the same lunch table every day and laugh at each others stupid jokes. Eventually we started dating and I thought we'd be together forever. Until one of my friends showed me a message he got from her. She asked him for advice on breaking up with me. That day I was devastated. The week before Thanksgiving she sent her friend to break up with me. I... [Read More]
Tags: Love, Missing, Unloved, HeartbrokenI hope your happy because I'm the one who was casted into this darkness broken, battered and used. I remember when i first meet u. I was friends with your bros and one day we were talking about video games before class freshmen year. It was Friday and we were ready for the weekend. They asked me to come hang out over at your house to play rock band. I said sure why not? just tell me when and where and I'll b there. They told me Saturday around 1pm and gave me directions. So Saturday rolls around and i headed over there. I acted casual cause it was someone elses house you saw me but i didn't see you till later. While playing video games put of the corner of my eye i see you texting your bro. Being carefree i don't pay too much attention and started focusing... [Read More]
Tags: Pain, Darkness, True Story, Love, Unloved