Its funny how on TV the image of a relationship is simple. You meet a guy/girl in freshman, fall deeply in love. The relationship carries on all through high school and college. Having special moments when you say "I love you for the first time." Going to prom together etc. And then getting married and living happy ever after. That's not my case at all. I'll start by saying I was surrounded by a family filled with failed marriages, relationships. So at a young age I knew not to believe all the lovey dovey stuff I saw on TV. I went through my first year of High School watching girls desperately go after the senior boys, football players, anything to get there status in the role of High School a little bit higher. Me on the other hand was avoiding all the arrows cupid had thrown at me. Until I... [Read More]
Tags: Love, Heartbroken, Confused, Help, True Story, BetrayalIt all started during my second year of high school, I started dating my good friend, Nicolas. Nicolas was a very quiet person, but certain topics could make him talk non stop. I liked that about him. He didn't smile much, but whenever I was with him, he’d show me his adorable smile, I’d feel like hugging him tightly from his cuteness. I wasn't quite sure how we ended up together, we’re complete opposite, in our taste in Music, Style, Personality.. But maybe, just maybe, that’s what made us come together? ..I’m still not sure why I love Nicolas. The first time I met Nicolas was in the last year of middle school, he used to sit on the first bench on the right with John, while I used to sit in the middle row in the second bench with my friend Nora. That’s when I noticed, Nicolas used to... [Read More]
Tags: Sad, True Story, Cry, Depression, Love, Confused, Unloved, Heartbroken, HurtI wish you could see how i really feel on the inside, instead of believing all the lies that I?ve been telling you, not only you, actually everyone, including myself... Why can?t you see how I feel? Don?t you get it? I wish I just could tell you the truth, how I really feel about you. I don?t want to hide it anymore or pretend that those feelings for you aren?t there. But I feel that you?re lying about something, or at least not telling me the whole truth. We are best friends, and you?re the only one that I can truly be myself with. But I feel like we are growing apart. You don?t talk to me as much as you used to. You don?t touch me or cuddle with me as much as you used to. Everything has changed now. Now, it seems like you don?t even want... [Read More]
Tags: Best Friend, Love, Sad, Angry, Confused"I don't know" is my favorite phrase these days - when i say "these days" i mean since June 14th 2010, that's 11 months. I'm really confused about my feelings. First of all, this might not be the saddest story and i might seem ungrateful for my life at the moment but i really cant cope with this. I'm feeling so depressed and just literally want to die right now. I told one of my friends about this (the only person i could really trust with this) and they told me to go see a psychologist.. but i don't want to. I know - stubborn. I think its better if i get the pain over with and kill myself. Right now I'm at the point where every time i go in the kitchen or get hold off a knife, i press it against my face and it relieves me for... [Read More]
Tags: Lonely, Confused, Tragedy, Help, Psychologist, Psycho, SuicideUpon entering high school, one of the most popular advices that can be given is to not believe in love. And well what do we do? We believe in love. It was one of the beginning years of high school that I thought my life was quite honestly ?perfect?. Not to sound like a typical snotty teenager, but I had the life. I had the money, the boyfriend, and the ?best friends.? The posse and I did absolutely everything together, from eating to shopping to clubbing and to sleepovers. We also shared everything from books to clothes also. The year drifted by and we were still great friends. However, that began to change quickly the following high school year. I believe it was my last or second to last year of high school. I was still going out with the same guy but I decided to distant myself from the... [Read More]
Tags: Pain, Hurt, Confusedfor Arnold: If there is one thing in my life that I would cherish the most.. it's probably the day I met you..You bring me my sweetest smile and my most painful tears..I got the deepest love for you and it cause me so much pain knowing I don't have any right to be part of your life.. You just don't know how a single word from you delighted my days, or how your voice disturb my system..It's worth keeping the memories in my heart. I guess it just have to end this way..not all love has happy ending no matter how great and pure it is. In a short time I learned that love can't be measured by length of time or moments shared because deep down in my heart I know there will always be a space for you... One time I experienced how to be truly happy,... [Read More]
Tags: Dilemma, Love, Confused, HeartbrokenI thought my life is complete,I have a happy family, a good job and a quite stable relationship with the man I loved.. I don't know where it starts. All I can remember is since day one that I met this guy I felt so different inside. I'm not the type who will just swoon over every cute guy I used to bump into. Well the funny thing is, He's not cute, he's not nice and he's not typically the man I will like. At first I ignore the feeling coz I thought it's just a plain crush and aside from the fact that I love my boyfriend so much. But things get complicated each passing day..I felt so idiot whenever he's near and so totally shy and stupid..Arnold is my office mate and he's kinda snob. My other office mates used to tease me about my feeling for him.... [Read More]
Tags: Dilemma, Love, Confused