At the age of 12, I remember when it all started. I believe it was some time in September when a long time friend of my sister, payed a visit. I didn't really mind him coming over, for I didn't pay much attention to him and my sister's actions. As the night progressed, I noticed they took frequent trips to the bathroom and repetitively kept rubbing their noses. I approached my sister's friend, Carlos, and asked about the situation. He just laughed, and I asked if they were doing cocaine. He replied; "Yeah, do you wanna try some?" At first, I was hesitant. Growing up, I was taught that drugs were bad, so I didn't want any part in it. Later, my curiosity got the best of me and I agreed to do a line. He set it up in the bathroom, and handed me a dollar bill as he... [Read More]
Tags: Addiction, Abuse, Drugs, Sex, Suicide, Hurt, Depressed, Lost, Sad, Life, PainIt all started on Tuesday, February 19. I was going home on the trolley with my friend, Linh. We were talking about anything we could think of. But then, we got on the topic of her best friend. She told me that her best friend was the only person she truly trusted. He was everything to Linh. He was always there for Linh and he was the one who would do anything for her. But something collapsed in Linh's eyes. "He wants to suicide." Those words struck me and tears came into my eyes. "Why?" I asked as I stared at Linh, worried what she would say. "He's being cyber bullied...because he is gay." Linh said looking down at her phone. I stared at Linh and got angry. I don't see why people are so judgmental. Why cant they just accept people as they are? Why cant they shut up... [Read More]
Tags: Best Friend, Friends, Suicide, Death, Gone, Depressed, Sad, BulliedIt was late at night and Isabella called and called Trevor but he does not answer. He just texted her that he was at a friend's. It's been a couple of weeks since Trevor start to become busy with his friends and the fact that he never have time to text or chat Bella made her feel insecure. One night, Bella cried so she texted Trevor, "Are we fighting?" but there's no reply "What did I do to u?" But still no reply.. So She called Him Trevor: Oh Sorry, Babe my phone is in silent Bella: where are you? Trevor: I'm at a friend's Bella: Again?! Trevor: Why? are you mad? Bella: Don't you know what it is now? Trevor: What? what do you mean? Bella: I'll go there, where's that house? Trevor: You can't go in here Babe!! Bella: Why Not?! Trevor: J--Just don't go! Then Trevor ended... [Read More]
Tags: Sadness, Death, Waiting, Sorrow, Alone, Friendship, Depressed, Cry, Tears, Hate, Guilt, Missing, HeartbrokenIt seems as if everybody is always happy around you, but you're the only person who seems to be depressed. I was the type of girl who didn't need anybody to reply on too. I didn't need anybody to make me happy. I didn't mind staying home by myself. As I became older and watched movies it seem to be that relationships were the key to happiness. All I wanted to do was feel loved. It seemed like all my friends were in love and happy. I understand that we're still young and have our whole life ahead of us, but when someone makes you feel wanted, it's one of the best feelings. I met a guy on MySpace, and corny as it sounds that was the thing back then. He said he saw me at school and I caught his eye. He's was a year older then me, and... [Read More]
Tags: Love, Sadness, True Story, Cheater, Breakup, Sad, Hurt, Depressed, Betrayed, Unloved, Pain"Oh, Lena. I don't know how you do it. You're so strong all the time. I am not sure how you keep it together. Thank you so much for listening to me. It means the world to me." I'm the kind of girl that lives to make other people feel better about themselves, to help them see the light at the end of the tunnel. I am the kind of girl that you will see jumping around singing at the top of my lungs during worship. I am the kind of girl that puts on a show. It started back in 6th grade. I'm 16 now, but December 4th, 2008, still haunts me. I was the nerdy, quiet girl. I was in band and it was the night of our very first concert. During 8th period we received a note saying the concert was now canceled due to "unforeseen circumstances."... [Read More]
Tags: Death, Self Harm, Hurt, Tears, Recovery, Sad, Depressed, FrustrationI'm hurt. I'm sad. I'm angry. I'm frustrated. I'm distressed. Unlike a lot of people, I have some friends that love and care about me and I have a somewhat amazing family. I guess the reason I feel like this is that its not enough for me. I have 2 TRUE friends that I know care about me and would be there for me if I really needed them. Is that enough? It could be. I have an amazing mom, who gives the most amazing hugs. Two brothers and a sister, who love me even if they don't show it. The reason that I am now 4 hours away from my favorite people is because of the stupid teenage drama, my stupid father and stupid liars. Drama is the friends who pretend to like you because you have a license. Drama is when people start fights over things that don't... [Read More]
Tags: Betrayed, Alone, Depressed, Sad, Love, Hurt, Family, UnlovedSome people believe in dreams,in wishes,in unconditional love or in love with the first sight. I used to be one of those people. But I'm not anymore. I used to live in a world full of magic a world that none can possibly hurt me. A world completely safe for me and my heart. I was a dreamer and none or nothing could take away my dreams ,my hopes. I was perfectly happy in this situation, I was perfectly safe. I was keeping my distance from everyone. I was building huge walls around me so none can come and get me from my world , my reality , my safety and then suddenly you show up. You brought confusion in my life. But it was a sweet confusion. We were having good time together. I shared my dreams, my hopes with you. And little by little you took everything from... [Read More]
Tags: Sad, Depressed, Breakup, Love, Unloved, Alone, SadnessSo, this is my life, my story and my pain. This isn't a love story or any of that stuff this is my story, my entire story. You the people reading this will know how it all started, and how it ended. This story is all true, nothing made up. I hope you learn some stuff from this story. It all started in middle school. I had a lot of cool, Truthful and Helpful friends, at least I thought I did. Until one day I started being blackmailed over Facebook, Still not exactly sure how he found me but he did. He put up pictures of me Naked... I was disgusted, sickened and mad. That's where stuff started getting bad. I started loosing all my respect, friends and everything. I moved schools, thought I'd be happy and not bullied anymore, Right???, Wrong. I started being blackmailed again, the man came... [Read More]
Tags: Bullying, Suicide, Blackmail, Hate, Depressed, SadThis is going to sound so cheesy and I don't really know how to explain it so I guess I will say it...I just feel so empty and lost inside myself and I don't know why. I mean I have a great group of friends and a family who loves me and I know that some people don't even have that but I don't know why I still feel so empty and alone. It started when I started to self-harm (which I have stopped) and like any other person I thought I could trust my best friend so I told her the truth and it felt good to finally tell someone and get it off my chest, but months later I found that you cannot always trust the people you love. My so-called Best Friend had betrayed me and had told someone else my secret, but not just anyone, she... [Read More]
Tags: Sad, Alone, Depressed, True Story, Hurt, Cut, BetrayalThis is the story or a girl who fell in love but it's too late. That girl is me. I've known him for five years, he has loved me for two years, and yet...I realized how deep my feelings are for him...When I left Egypt. I lived in Egypt for most of my life, but currently I live in England. My father's job is the reason why I travel, we have been to Dubai, Lebanon, France, Egypt and England. I'm still fifteen, and I've lived in that much places. I never minded travelling. In fact I love travelling, but when it depends on losing your friends, its a bit hard. I was in Egypt when my father got his job in England. I was thirteen, and it was very hard for me to leave my best friends...It was also a bit hard to say goodbye to him knowing that he... [Read More]
Tags: Sad, Pain, Missing, True Story, Heartbroken, Lonely, Depressed, Regret, Love