These risen gates wont open up for me but these broken wings will heal if I see you one more time. I'm screaming for life. I want you to show me what its like to be the last one standing on earth. Show me what's wrong or right. Fear. But I want to see you, I want you to be real, standing in front of me.. all the things you said are running through my head. Just you Nyle.. no one else. One minute I was standing.. next thing I knew I was on my knees, begging to see you on this place we call earth, I'm still grieving that you're gone. I'm grieving for the people I once lost and loved, I want you to see me one more time while I still exist, because i know I'll never make it to heaven. My heart and soul can't take... [Read More]
Tags: Broken, Death, Love, Tragic, Life, Mystery, Heaven, Rip, Accident(ITS NOT COMPLETE BUT PLEASE GIVE IT A READ ANYWAYS.) Have you ever sit in your room, or even in class daydreaming about a passionate, fiery and somewhat humorous love? Have you ever acquired this love? Yes? No? Love to me was never more than a word, a word that I had thought I had felt multiple times but was lying to myself each one of those times. To tell you the truth, all those years I thought I knew what it was; it was me looking at a guy and feeling warm and fuzzy inside; queue the butterflies and slow-mo movement, that was love for me, every time he’d smile at me I’d think ‘Oh wow he’s so perfect.’ To be honest all of the 39 crushes I had, had in my life up till now had been my first loves for me. Never had I dated or even... [Read More]
Tags: Love, Love Hurts, Life, Loss, Tears, Lovestory, LeavingThis is my story. I was born into a newly-wed couple, with a family history of depression and anxiety. I was a normal child until it came time for me to go into first grade at a new school. I didn't know anyone there and I was fairly shy. That year I was constantly bullied for the way I was, not to mention I made very few friends. After that year, it got better but I never fully recovered deep down, and while I was moderately outgoing, I started to develop self-image issues by the time I was in fourth grade, and in fifth grade I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety. Ever since then, my life has been steadily going downhill. Grade Six - I started off Grade Six optimistically. It was my last year at the school and I had a number of friends who I was in... [Read More]
Tags: Life, Depression22nd September 2014, I am not holding anyone responsible for what I have done, nor am I blaming anyone who may happen to be reading this. Furthermore, I want to avoid any feeling of guilt or upset. There was no way you could have saved me, nor was there a way you could have possibly known; My mind has been set and I was determined to achieve this end result. I disguised my plans quite well, I just needed to find the right time and the right way, and now that you are reading this, it seems that I have found it. I don't want anyone to feel that I did this because I was weak and tired, no I just felt out of place, like a burden, or more like a failure; constantly feeling hopeless and more often than not, experiencing loneliness. But the feeling has been, until recently,... [Read More]
Tags: Suicide Note, Suicide, Goodbye, Aloneso, I started talking to this girl Ashley a few years ago, and right off the back we clicked and I honestly thought "this is the girl" she was perfect for me. I still remember the first time talking to her, first tile meeting her, and so on. so we started talking, she was about to go to her softball game and said we shared each others numbers ( good ole Facebook started this off ) so after softball she texted me, it was a Saturday if I remember correctly and we talked for hours and hours. and I was so happy at first. I thought I finally met someone who I had a chance with and things would work out with. we talked daily for hours at a time and after a few days, I texted her a long message overnight, one of them appreciation messages I guess you... [Read More]
Tags: LifeHi, my name is Michelle. I'm 16 years old. And I want to tell you my story. It started when I went to highschool. I always felt insecure and i didn't like my body. Then I got a boyfriend but after a month he broke up with me saying he didn't like me anymore. He said I was ugly and fat. That made me more insecure. I started to change. I wore more make-up, changed my clothing style, I didn't listen to my parents anymore. I got punished a lot and I didn't have many friends. In the second year of highschool everything went okay. And in the third year it went downwards. I stopped eating, i got days where i ate a lot and days where i ate nothing I got in touch with a boy I saw a lot at school. He was the first boy who kissed... [Read More]
Tags: Life“Not everyone in this world has the fate to cherish the fullest form of love . Some are born just to experience the abbreviation of it.” The past is flashing its scorching light beams. Tearing me apart, breaking me at the seams. The darkness of my life is more visible in dark. On 3rd April 2014, Since past few days I was seeing the improvement in her, but all of the sudden she fell down drastically. The impact is so much that it led to collapse me. Being unknown from all that was happening, I was still in a state of shock. The truth was so hard to accept, but I could imagine her dealings and behavior towards me …. I hear all those cries of pain around me especially of my eyes and heart. Few days before she used to spent whole beautiful with me, but oh GOD! Who... [Read More]
Tags: Life, LoveWe're exhausted and our souls have grown weary. Just like the clothes you wore grew worn, your soul also wears out. Soon, the tiredness will overwhelm all and there will only be a darkness surrounding the hopes of the souls' wandering. Does life matter? Does it matter? Does it? We ask this question many times. We struggle and frantically kick the air about us but we hit nothing. We're all alone. We suffers alone, and all we love, we love alone. Some love wishes are granted, and some are rejected. Some death wishes are granted, and some are rejected. Some hope wishes are granted, but some are crushed. The world we live in is as such. Crying out, "Cruel!" doesn't help anyone. No one cares, no one sees. No one sees the hand drowning in the midst of the wide diversity and assuming it as a waving hand, non fathom.... [Read More]
Tags: Life, Love, Insight, TragedyI never actually knew or realized that I was a hardcore lesbian. I was a simple young jolly child who liked running and loved to compete with others. A typical tomboy like me was really nothing special, but the desire to impress females was a unique aspect of mine. I never understood that because I was simply ignorant in the early stages of my life, but I always hung out with the guys simply because it felt natural to do so. I played sports like guys did, teased girls like guys did, fought with guys like guys did, and just did everything that the guys did. I considered myself much more male than female and it felt good to impress the females. I just... Liked the feeling. In middle school, everything changed. A beautiful woman entered my life. It was in 6th grade that I fell completely in love with... [Read More]
Tags: Heartbreak, Lost, Love, Life, LesbianA girl named Maggie was born to old parents. Maggie grew up happy, social, and funny! The most important people in her life were: her BFF Britney, who she met when she was two; her aunt; her mom and her dad (of course!). Maggie had so many friends in preschool that sadly she had to leave most of them then come kindergarden and that's where she met most of her friends. She was good friends with on girl named, Kiki who was a great friend at first but then started to bully Maggie through the years. Maggie had many friends that would protect kindergarden through 5th grade. Yeah she was bullied up until fifth grade and it was on and off bullying. In first grade Maggie was not as talkative as before and stuck with a small crowd. In second grade she was very shy and developed a social anxiety... [Read More]
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