I don't really know where to start, or how. Perhaps it could all go back to my childhood. Don't get me wrong, my parents were good parents. It's just never once in my life have they said "I love you". I've never been hugged by them nor given any attention. This may be due to the fact of having a large family. However, ever since birth I have felt alone. And that scares me. In elementary school, I had no friends. This was due to my horrible speech problems. People made fun of me for the way I talked, so I didn't talk. This went on for years. Years of never having a friend to walk with. Or even a single person to talk to. Then came middle school. I wasn't bullied, I was tormented. My speech impediment was no longer there, so I'm still not sure why. But they... [Read More]
Tags: Love, Depression, Drugs, Rape, Sad, AccidentI was walking home in the dark, alone... It was a stupid idea really, the snow storm had gotten worse and the roads were sheet ice; no cars would dare consider driving on them. I was almost to the crossing when i felt the tingling sensation of someone behind me, someone watching me... It turns out it wasn't just one person though. It was 10. 10 boys who had seen a young girl walking home alone in the dark, with out any witness' to get in the way. They came up behind me, and in that moment i just reacted, chucking my bag to them and yelling "Just take the money, take the phone i don't care!" I had used every ounce of my energy to screech that out, as if someone would hear me over the roar of the snow.No one did. No one knew, no one heard and... [Read More]
Tags: Gang Rape, Alone, Disturbed, Death, RapeJune 29, 2009, 4 days after my 15th birthday, I was just getting off of work. I had to take my dog for a walk. Mom and dad weren't home. I walked on the lonely dirt road. A man in a red sweatshirt was in the distance coming towards me. I live in a small town where everyone knows everyone. But I didn't know who he was. The closer he got the more I realized I couldn't see his face. Only his piercing black eyes. He watched me with every step I took. When he finally reached me he stole my dog from me and hit her over the head. The next thing I know I am on the ground and he is on top of me ripping my pants of. His dirty scarred hand covering my mouth. I could feel the tears running down my face. I remember thinking... [Read More]
Tags: Pain, Rape, FearI had the perfect child hood. I was born out of love. I wasnt a mistake, I wasn't a lack of birth control or a broken condom. My mum couldn't get pregnant. She wanted a child so she took IVF, and it didn't work the first time. My dad wanted a child more than my mum. I was born knowing my parents loved me. That I really was wanted. I grew up with my sisters in the most beautiful house, I was never spoiled and they raised me well. I had a good childhood, but I hurt myself a lot. I was clumsy and my parents started shouting at me and my dad would hit my leg when I did something wrong. I'm not sure when, but they slowly started losing all faith in me. I became nothing but a burden in their eyes. So, the real story starts just... [Read More]
Tags: Rape, Pain, Tears, Broken, Love, Helplessme and abigale had been friends for years , about 13 years actually :/ anyways , abigale was like a sister to me we did everything together. shared secrets the lot . in 2009 abigale found a boyfriend who she really really liked. she thought that she loved him too. he told her that he liked her too. about a year later abigale told me that her boyfriend ( james ) had become different. On a Saturday night abigale came round my house and asked if she could stay i asked my grandma and she said yehh . when abigale was getting ready i noticed bruises on her arms and neck, all over her body , i asked her what happened and she told me that her and james had been fighting a lot, i said that's no way for your boyfriend too treat you. she took no notice of... [Read More]
Tags: Death, Rape, Friend