She's an innocent little girl named Natasha who grew up with no one and nothing. Her mother didn't have time for her or her sisters. Her mother had time for drugs and sex. She was 4 and she was confused. She asked God everyday why her mommy didn't love her. Natasha asks her mommy why she doesn't love her and her mother says "Because you're worthless! You're ugly and disgusting and you're not my kid!" Natasha just cries, she doesn't understand why her mother says the things that she says. She's cold, hungry and scared. Her mother never feeds her or her sisters. Instead her mother sits there and eats in front of them, making her and her sisters smell the food but if they try to eat it, they know they'll get beat,so they go to bed starving. Natasha stinks and is extremely dirty. Her mom didn't pay any... [Read More]
Tags: Sad, Sadness, Broken, Sad Story, Pain, Painful, Hurt, Help, Hopeless, Alone, Crying, Confused, Cutting, Giving UpMy life never was too good or easy or what you have. When I was 4 years old I lived on long island, had friends that actually gave a crap about me. But it wasn't always sunshine, that was when I watched my mother be abused day after day. Then in less than a year me and my mom moved to Pennsylvania I was glad I never had to watch it again but I was so depressed coz I lost all my friends. I guess you can say I moved on but I still miss them. After we moved here I joined school, it was kindergarten and I was starting to make friends. I was happy, but I didn't notice how cruel I was being to kids who were my friends. I would bully them and now I feel horrible but there's nothing I can do you know? In first... [Read More]
Tags: Depression, Cutting, Life, Hate, Bullying, Unloved, Family, AloneAs I slowly drag the the blade across my arm the blood flows out of me. "Just one more." I told myself this lie so many times before. "Just one more" I pleaded again and again. "Last one." I lied again, now my arm is blood covered, and cut to the bone. "What now," I ask myself. I throw the blade. "How could you do this to me?!?" I covered my face as I cry crystal tears. The blood keeps flowing. Again I promise myself no more. My arm goes numb from the pain. I run outside into the rain. I fall to my knees. . I let the drops go into the cuts I scream in pain as a puddle of red forms below my arm. The rain keeps falling and stinging the cuts I have made up and down my arm "Why?! Why, did you have to feel... [Read More]
Tags: Guardian Angel, Love, Suicide, Cutting, Self HarmI can’t handle it anymore! I whispered desperately out into the darkness of my room, and threw away my phone. I had been through so much during the last days, this was the last straw! I felt like I had been raped… I had tried to commit suicide earlier in the week, but I had called a friend that talked me from it, but now, that wasn’t enough anymore… Nothing could save me now… Nothing. I went over to the cabinet where I kept my clothes and pulled out a hidden drawer, despite being half blinded by tears I could still see what I was looking for, it was gleaming in the weak light in my room. I picked it up and tried to see my reflection in it… My pride, my blood stained pride. A big Sami knife was resting in my hands, its blade covered in dried blood.... [Read More]
Tags: Sad Love, Lost, Lost Love, Broken, Suicide, Suffering, Pain, Secret, CuttingShe slowly pushed the blade in to her arm and pulled it down her, feeling the sting, feeling the sense of freedom from everything that had been in her head. There was the singular sharp, sweet sting as the blade sliced her skin. Not to deep but deep enough to make herself bleed, she whispered to herself, "It's just one cut. I'll be ok, just no more." She put the blade down and wiped the blood from the cut she had just made. She looked back down at the blade. "I need more," she thought. She picked the blade up and put it to her arm and made one more, and another and another. After she realized what she had done and how full her arm was of cuts. She cried and started wiping the blood from her arm. "Why did I do this to myself." She looked down at... [Read More]
Tags: Abuse, Love, Father, Family, Self Harm, Suicide, Death, Cutting, DepressionWell, it all started in elementary school, his name was Jeffrey, had beautiful long hair. He was neglected, beat and bullied. He liked me in there and I did the same. In high school, we were best of friends, until they started bullying me for Liking him He ignored it blinded by love, I couldn't be hated so I told him something I HATE MYSELF FOR DOING THIS!!!!!!!!!!! I told him I liked another guy, I could see the hatred and sadness in Jeff's eyes, he came with scars to school. Teachers nor students cared... I was still in love with him, even though he did not know that. He invited me to his place and we ended up making out...Word got out somehow and we were in deep shit I could only save myself I couldn't save him so I told him the same lie AGAIN. During the next... [Read More]
Tags: Suicide, Death, Pain, Cutting, Betrayed, Bullied, Alone, Hurt, SadI was not a normal girl. I was different from other people. I dressed differently, was more developed,and had a different maturity level than most. But one day my friend Kayla and I decided to hangout at the local park(it was also a skate park). I was waiting for her to arrive when I notice 3 boys. They looked a couple of years older. I tried to ignore their staring eyes. I accidently dropped my phone out of my pocket when one of the boys walked up to me to return it. He politely tapped on my shoulder. I turned. It was the one with honey-blonde hair. His eyes were like the ocean. Deep and full of mystery. He grabbed my hand and I was speechless. He quickly let go after he set my phone in my palm. I then saw Kayla in the distance and ran to go talk... [Read More]
Tags: Lies, Friends, Mistakes, Unloved, Sad, Hurt, Cutting, True StoryMy story starts in 7th grade, even though I'm only in 8th, a lot has happened since then. I'm Claire by the way. 13 years old. don't read this if you judge but ok yeah anyways. The first day I walked into a public school I was like "fuck yeah it's middle school yayy" but really no. It was hell, pure hell. I got called fat by 2 eighth graders and oh it gets better because that's the first week only. After three weeks I was getting called names by a lot of people I didn't even know... one of the eighth grade popular girls walked by me with all her friends and said "oh this one's really ugly." I looked at them and said "what?" and they said " oh and she's a dumb ass too! How nice, see you late caterpillar eyebrows" and I just ran in to... [Read More]
Tags: Bullying, Suicide, Cutting, Sad, Heartbroken, Girl, Alone, Hurt, PainSo there was this new kid that moved here. He was kinda a bad kid. but once you got to know him. He was pretty cool. I thought I'd never have a chance with him.. then the summer after he moved here we were hanging out and he told me he liked me. We grew closer as time went by and he asked me out. of course I said yes, I had fallen in love with him the minute he moved here.... He has had a hard home life and one night we were laying there and he was telling me about his family and stuff that has happened and he started crying... It made me feel good that he could talk to me about these things. Because he couldn't talk to anyone else about them.. His dad was kind of abusive and his mom never really listened. I was... [Read More]
Tags: Depression, Cutting, Selfharm, Love, Breakup, Alone, Depressed, Waiting, Sex, Heartbroken, Lost, True StoryI fell in love with this guy, He's 21 and I'm 18. Every time we got together I fell more and more in love with him. We would text each other everyday. While I was on vacation in Oklahoma, that was when I started to fall for him. He was the only guy I felt completely safe with. In his arms, when he holds me I felt so content. When other boys would hug me, I never felt that way. He knew how to make me laugh and how to make me smile. we slept together, not in a sexual way. We just cuddled next to each other, and fell asleep. One day after I slept at his house. He was gonna go shopping with this girl AKA his best friend. He told me things like I would be the first girl he would take on a date, how I'm... [Read More]
Tags: Sad, True Story, Heartbroken, Pain, Breakup, Alone, Tears, Betrayal, Sorrow, Memories, Hope, Hurt, Depression, Un