This is the story of a young man. Whether you learn something from this or not is up to you. Most of the time until high school I like to stay alone why? I do not know but that's just me. Anyway I met new people in high school and eventually became friends with them. Of those friends I gathered there were 2 girls. Sam and Sabrina. Unfortunately for me I became attracted to Sabrina. she was a very weird girl and some things about her I did not understand. So eventually we talked but it turned out even I was too weird for her. See in my school men that was considered weird became an outcast while girls was different. Not only that there was a few things I wasn't used too like friends and other things. So I just wasn't ready for a lot of things. For example... [Read More]
Tags: Love, Lonely, Unloved, Sad, AloneI would always think to myself, is it all worth it? Is it even worth trying anymore? Sometimes I just feeling running away... Far off to the distance... Where I can be alone. Every night I cry myself to sleep. I wake up with sadness written on my eyes. I go to school, get bullied, then go back home. I never had friends. I never fitted in. People just knew me as the 'lonely kid' I was perfectly fine with that name, because it was the truth. My mother died when I was born. My dad tried his best to raise me, but he just kept drinking and smoking, and gambling. Every time I go home, I see my father laying on the floor. I would always just run to my room crying. Why did God give me this life? Why do I need to suffer? I have no one... [Read More]
Tags: Emo, True Story, Sad, Lonely, Alone, Bullied, Unloved, SadnessWhen I was little, my mother told me that I was the happiest little girl in the world. Wrong. It was all wrong. I was always alone in this world. Never once have I've told to be myself. Sit up straight, be polite, talk to others when spoken to, don't stay up late, and what not. Rules, rules, rules, it's all I've ever known. Years pass by, and so many times we moved from state to state, house to house, and school to school. I was broken, shattered so many times that I'll never be that little girl again. All of a sudden I'm in high school. The years always dragged, but I find myself as a freshmen too soon. Seven years have passed since I realized that no one really cared for me. Seven years I was alone, pretending to be happy, pretending to be someone's friend. I've been... [Read More]
Tags: Love Hurts, Lonely, Tears, Pain, Regret, Real, True Love, Young Love, Shattered, First Love, Gone, Heartache, HiI remember seeing your face the first time we met. You were walking around the neighborhood because you just moved in. You were looking for some friends and my two little brothers saw you. Because of how short you were, they thought you were their age. Ha Ha. Turns out, you were mine. I never really liked you at first, speaking of, I was like 10. I thought you were just going to (like other people in the neighborhood,) stay for a month and move out. Boy was I wrong. Everyday that summer you came over asking for my brothers. More and more I fell into your spell. Suddenly we started hanging out more and more. We were really good friends then. When school started, we were in the same class. You became good friends with one of my best guy friends. After that, we were as close as friends... [Read More]
Tags: Confused, Hurt, Lonely, Friends, Heart, Love, Unloved, Pain, GuiltIt was a cold rainy night.. I met up with him the day after our huge argument. I parked outside his house as I usually did every night and as I opened my door he was already standing outside waiting for me. as soon as i opened the door he grabbed my hand and led me inside his room. We locked eyes and we both knew what was going to happen that very moment. He began to explain how disappointed he was in me and he's had enough. i was wrong, I knew I was. I pathetically began to weep and beg for forgiveness. He held my hand and told me it was best we were friends and as he's eyes got watery... He walked to the opposite side of the room and had his head in his hands and said, "I care about you so much.. Why is this... [Read More]
Tags: Sad Love, Sadness, Depressing, Love Story, Love Hurts, Life, Lies, Hope, Lonely, Sad, Breakup, Memories22/02/12 was the worst day of my life I had ever had, my mum woke me up in the morning to go for the usual walk we would at 5:30am every morning but she had this sad look on her face and look really worried when she looked at me. I thought I'd done something wrong and asked her what was wrong and she took me out to the back room so I was away from my sister who was still asleep in bed as mum didn't want her to wake up just yet. She sat down with me and said that she had some very unfortunate news to tell me, so I automatically thought one of my grandparents had pasted away or something but she said that Kev had had a heart attack and died at 4:30 that morning and I swear I could have killed myself right then... [Read More]
Tags: Sadness, Hurt, Love, Lost, Lonely, Death, Grief, Best Friend, HeartacheI had a best friend. He's a guy. We knew each other when we were still very young, about 2 years old. Well, our mothers were best friends. That's why I knew him, because our mothers were very close. I loved talking to him. He's like a big brother to me. I was always counting on him, on whatever. He treated me well. He encouraged me when I felt sad and devastated. He hugged me when I cried. He laughed with me when I felt happy. He fought with guys who made fun of me, or even made me cry. I just loved him so much. We did everything together. We played anything, we laughed at each other, we argued sometimes, but those arguments were just made our bonds even stronger. But, when we became teenagers, our feelings changed. Well, I still felt the same about him. But, I knew... [Read More]
Tags: Lost, Love, Lonely, Hurt, Sick, Best Friend, Death, SadPeople always ask me what's going on in my head. It's not necessarily a bad thing, they say it jokingly for the fact that I'm always smiling, and acting crazy. Some people actually dare to believe that smile. But what's really going on in my head? You wouldn't understand. It's empty. That girl on the outside that could make you burst out into a fit of laughter with one sentence is the one who is slowly tearing herself apart on the inside. If you were to read my mind it'd be filled with dark colors, lonely souls, and song lyrics. Yeah, I know, it's quiet in there with just some faint background music. But it makes me content. Music is the only thing keeping me on this earth everyday. And with the help of God, I know I'll be able to overcome this hatred toward myself. I just wish some... [Read More]
Tags: Music, Suicide, Lonely, Alone, Depression, LifeIt’s dark. He lays alone in bed, wide awake, staring at the empty ceiling above him. His chest tightens as it breaks out in gooseflesh. He sighs, wanting to feel warm. But not the warmth of a blanket, the warmth of another is what he desires. To feel ones arms lay across his bare chest, to have the pressure of a cheek lying on his shoulder exhaling warm air on his neck. He longed for that feeling he once had. Sighing again, his eyes flash to the clock on the wall, 2:09. He missed her touch, her warmth, her breath. She had left him and he hadn’t stopped loving her, and now he lies wanting to feel her against him again, to feel together, needed, and even loved. He turns away from the ceiling and his desires, but to no avail. Missing the color of her lips, the smoothness of... [Read More]
Tags: Night, Memories, Love, Missing, Lonely, Sad, BreakupHi. Have you ever had that feeling that one day you're on top of the world? That you don't care what anyone says? Well I never ever ever had that feeling. I have always felt like nothing and nobody cares about me in the world. But who cares right? Always been the one who follows not leads. Always have to follow 'popular people' around and let them pick on me tell them I'm ugly and don't matter to the world. But who cares right? Even my family makes me feel like that. Be that one girl that puts a smile on her face every day and makes it look like shes having fun. I've never dated anyone, no one thinks I'm pretty. But who cares? Maybe if people start to get to now me they'll know I'm smart, I'm funny, and I'm nice. But no body gives me a chance.But... [Read More]
Tags: Sad, Unloved, Alone, Depression, Sadness, Lonely