Most people have occasional ups and downs in their life. I have that too. What I have is a lot more severe than just the occasional ups and downs. When some unfortunate events occur to me, I feel worthless. Changes occur to me rapidly. I loose appetite, sleep and interest on everything. Eventually, I think of cutting myself or loose hope of being alive. When I am happy, I feel like the happiest person on the earth. I feel like telling the world I am happy. Pretty sure, I have some abnormalities in me. But, am I the only one? I feel that there are other people like me who lives around me with abnormalities more or less. Cutting is an emotional disorder. I am writing today because I have suffered through it. Cutting is the intentional act of harming on oneself with or without suicidal intend. Even if it... [Read More]
Tags: Pain, Cut, Suffering, HelpI sit in the dark everynight pull up my sleave and look down at my cold pale arm. i have tons of cuts some new some old. I go to get the razor blade i cut over and over untill my arm goes num. I cry from the pain but i love the way it feels. i love the feel of the warm red blood driping down my arm and the feel of the stinging cold air going into my skin to heal it, but i dont want it to heal. when and if it stops bleeding i cut again almost down to the bone, I want it to keep bleeding and i want the pain to last forever. If it only would. The next day i do the same thing i get home from school sit in the dark and cut. But this time i cut my vein and... [Read More]
Tags: Emo, Cut, Pain, Suffering