(This was the letter I wrote to my older brother the day after the love of my life broke up with me) Big brother, How are you doing? I am horrible. He broke up with me yesterday!! I feel lost, broken, and helpless. After 6 years he decided that after the end of his 9 months of house arrest he is moving back with his family in Europe, and he doesn’t want me to be a part of his new beginning, his new life. As he puts it he wants to start “fresh.” Yet he tells me he does still love me but that he HAS to do this. He said he isn’t ok with losing me forever, that he knows he is throwing something perfect away but he made up his mind! It tears me apart! I’ve never felt so deserted, so broken. I don’t know what to do.... [Read More]
Tags: Broken, Hurt, Lost, Crushed, Alone, Boyfriend, Memories, Breakup, SadThis is the story of a young man. Whether you learn something from this or not is up to you. Most of the time until high school I like to stay alone why? I do not know but that's just me. Anyway I met new people in high school and eventually became friends with them. Of those friends I gathered there were 2 girls. Sam and Sabrina. Unfortunately for me I became attracted to Sabrina. she was a very weird girl and some things about her I did not understand. So eventually we talked but it turned out even I was too weird for her. See in my school men that was considered weird became an outcast while girls was different. Not only that there was a few things I wasn't used too like friends and other things. So I just wasn't ready for a lot of things. For example... [Read More]
Tags: Love, Lonely, Unloved, Sad, AloneFirst let me say this. This story I'm sharing with you is what I went through. I remember it so well, I sometimes have nightmares about it, but I get through it. I feel as if it helps me when I share it, so here I am, sharing it with you. It's been about a year now since this happened. So, please, don't worry about it now. Yes, it still keeps a burden on me, but not as much as it used to. I first met Adam when I went to my high school. I was a sophomore. We had met through a friend, in which we became friends, but it soon turned into a gigantic crush for me. I had told my friend that I thought I was falling for him, but I wasn't gay at that time. I wasn't sure if it was okay for me. About a... [Read More]
Tags: Sad, Victim, Hurt, Rape, Alone, Betrayed, GayMy heart aches and I am only a shell of a person. I set the appearance of being calm, cool, and collected, but I feel so lonely inside. I have no one. I am all alone on this earth. My "friends" do not care about me, they only want things from me. When I was young, I used to be so happy and cheerful until my mother began to emotionally torment me. She beat me with wire hangers, extension cords, and wires. Of course, to her she was only " punishing me for misbehaving" but I knew she was only taking out her frustrations. To this day I will not forget the bruises she left me and the pain and torment that she caused me. Always calling me stupid and saying I would not amount to any hiring. Truth is, I forgive her because she is my mother.. A few... [Read More]
Tags: Death, Love, Sorrow, Hatred, Heartbroken, Alone, Empty, A Shell, Unloved, SadI would always think to myself, is it all worth it? Is it even worth trying anymore? Sometimes I just feeling running away... Far off to the distance... Where I can be alone. Every night I cry myself to sleep. I wake up with sadness written on my eyes. I go to school, get bullied, then go back home. I never had friends. I never fitted in. People just knew me as the 'lonely kid' I was perfectly fine with that name, because it was the truth. My mother died when I was born. My dad tried his best to raise me, but he just kept drinking and smoking, and gambling. Every time I go home, I see my father laying on the floor. I would always just run to my room crying. Why did God give me this life? Why do I need to suffer? I have no one... [Read More]
Tags: Emo, True Story, Sad, Lonely, Alone, Bullied, Unloved, Sadness"Eva, this isn't how it ends." He whispered. Tears flowed freely from my eyes. I didn't care how ridiculous I looked, all I wanted was him. I grabbed his hands, holding them tightly...I never wanted to let go. I never wanted him to let go of me. "Y-You can't leave me! D-don't do this. I don't know what to do...I can't do this without you." I sobbed...my whole body shaked with my tears and pain. "I'm sorry." He just whispered. "Lin-Lincoln...No. Please. Don't." "I'm sorry." He whispered again, and leaned in to kiss me on the forehead, "I love you, I love you more than anything in the world...And I always will." I shook my head. It wasn't enough. I needed him to stay by my side.I wasn't anything without him. "Why are you l-leaving me? I-is it something I did....?" I choked, my voice barely audible, "I can-I will... [Read More]
Tags: Sadness, Forbidden Love, Alone, Love, Pain, Missing, Memories, SadWell I'm back here in this dark world. I might as well make it my new home since I don't belong in the world where everyone is happy and enjoy the light. I'm an outcast in that world, no one will miss me, no one will care, or no one will even notice that I'm gone. There's a story behind this world I am and why I'm here, so everyone take a seat and I will tell my tale and why I'm here. There was a girl that was full of the happiness, life, and full of the light. She wasn't just an ordinary girl. She was a special in a way that everyone loved. The beautiful smile she had on her face, filled everyone with happiness. She had those sparkling eyes that brighten everyones days. She was perfect to everyone, but she had a secret that no one knew... [Read More]
Tags: Darkness, Sadness, Suicide, Death, Alone, PainHappiness wasn't meant for me...I hate my life and I didn't want to hate myself,but I ended up like that,anyway. My mother moved far away because of her job and now I live with my father, who is nuts. Seriously,he needs to go see a psychologist or something!!! He has a very serious problem with his nerves. But I have a serious problem,too...I am bipolar and I have depression. But I can't help it...What would YOU do if your life sucked like mine does? Yes,you heard me:my life sucks. HARD...Every day I hear these cheerful people say that they love everything and that if I want my life to change, I should be grateful for some things... But how can I be grateful when THERE'S NOTHING to be grateful for? My life isn't satisfying at all. I'm ugly as hell, unpopular, a complete idiot and so lazy that I can't... [Read More]
Tags: Life, Comfort, Lost, Sad, Alone, DepressionIt's 5'O clock. 5.2.13. I'm 16 years old sitting here thinking about my life.I have a bad self esteem issue. You and other might not think it's such a huge deal. But it is. To me it's a big deal. Yeah some adults might say it's a phase you go through but this started when I was little and has been going on and on forever. I found a solution. Might not be the best but it helps. Without my smoking I'm scared to see what would happen I feel like it keeps me sane. So I have less then a month of school left and I feel like its going by so slow. I'm failing all my math class yet I don't care. I know that's bad so why do I do it? About two months ago I moved out of my dad's. Why? Well he seems to love... [Read More]
Tags: Worried, Hurt, Family, Father, Brother, Mother, Unloved, Pain, AloneMy life never was too good or easy or what you have. When I was 4 years old I lived on long island, had friends that actually gave a crap about me. But it wasn't always sunshine, that was when I watched my mother be abused day after day. Then in less than a year me and my mom moved to Pennsylvania I was glad I never had to watch it again but I was so depressed coz I lost all my friends. I guess you can say I moved on but I still miss them. After we moved here I joined school, it was kindergarten and I was starting to make friends. I was happy, but I didn't notice how cruel I was being to kids who were my friends. I would bully them and now I feel horrible but there's nothing I can do you know? In first... [Read More]
Tags: Depression, Cutting, Life, Hate, Bullying, Unloved, Family, Alone